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So as I was reading a few blogs it got me thinking....I have really messed up dreams. And sometimes my day dreams are screwy as well. I honestly cannot remember the last time I had a dream that was not a nightmare. I dream about people dying, including myself, and it is always vivid. And I am not one of those people that wake up right before they die; I always watch myself die. Even as I child I could remember my mother waking me in the middle of the night because I was screaming, and just a few times but nearly every night. Even now I wake and my heart will be pounding, and my body will be shivering. I have even awoke several times crying from the pain of my dream because the torture just felt so wierd. Even at times during the day while I am awake I will see something happening, and then immediately my head will show me the worst possible outcome. I could be walking and drip but be ok, but in my head I see myself fall and land on my face. Then I see myself bleeding uncontrollable from my mouth, and I am just sitting on the ground wondering how the hell that happened. it even feels so real sometimes that I might actually grab myself or even other people as if it really happened. My mother tells me that I need to stop eating junk before I go to bed, but I do not think that is the reason why I have such haunting dreams. I mean I never ate junk before I went to bed as a child, so how would I account for the recuring dream of my mothers death. I still have that dream to this day, and here recently I have had one about my father as well. I am scared about what it all means. if anyone has any ideas let me now. Thanks for listening.