Got back from a very tiring day at work... and I still have work ahead of me -- homework with my firstborn, bathing and feeding the two of them, and a little bonding time, then it's time to put them to sleep. It doesn't usually go smoothly, though I tried many times. Me, being usually exhausted and my patience getting thinner as the day's getting over, conflicting with their demands of my presence in their own little ways, make me sometimes feel like screaming, and crying out loud.. but not today.
The TV is on as they are seriously stuck on it. I watch them make different expression, different shout outs as the TV roars. I watch them talk to each other, like they understand each other (my youngest boy is only two, speaks a lot, but we hardly understand). I watch them push each other, then jump, then hug each other. Then I suddenly notice that there's a smile drawing on my face, and I feel the joy inside.
I might be complaining a lot, for not having my husband all the time with us, for not having enough comfort to go on to life's daily routine, for almost everything, really. Despite of having almost everything, I still do feel lonely, a sad little woman inside. I hardly recognize the joy inside me. Today, I feel great as I watch my two bundle of joy... growing fast to two different lovely creatures. So, today, I'm not gonna scream at them for not listening to me, for not concentrating at the homeworks, for not hurrying up to finish the dinner, for splashing too much water from the tub, for telling them time to bed... Today, I'll share them the joy I feel inside.
Today, we will all go to bed happy...
|
|
| Views: 10
Email This to a Friend 