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Not like the past.
My body must be tired of bleeding. For when I cut now it takes longer for the blood to come to the surface of my skin. It doesn't ease out like it used to. Doesn't hurt as it used to. Maybe my razor is dull. Maybe my body is used to it. Maybe my body wants more from it....Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-16 05:33:58 | Rating:

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Mother.
MOTHER Don't call me a big girl. Don't be proud of me for doing something on my own Don't cry for me when I move out Don't think about all the good times we had together. Don't be sad when i'm on drugs. Don't feel bad that I push you away constantly. But......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-13 01:06:09 | Rating:

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Dear Deb,
Hello Debra, I hope you feel better soon. I wish I didn't have to write you like this but this is the only way until you get back in your office. How did the operation go? I hope it went fine. I just wanted to let you know how hard it is to not see you. I'm going through some crazy things right......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-07 02:02:52 | Rating:

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Monster inside of me. Explicit Content
I'm so pist at the world.I want to die. I XXXXX hate myself. I feel uncomfortable and foregin in my own body. I talk about dying alot I haven't done it yet and its not for attention i...Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-07 01:51:00 | Rating:

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Jessica. [this is old so it's not that good.] Explicit Content
You taught me everything from good to bad. Before I met you I was good no drugs good grades. And I thank you for it. We got caught and you took the blame. I c...Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-02 02:15:21 | Rating:

| Views: 50 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Friends Life

The truth.
Cutting Survey!! What age did you start cutting?: Twelve. How Old are you now?: Fifteen. how often do you cut?: Every week. how deep?: Deep enough for it to bleed alot. Do you feel better afterwards?: Yeah. Do other people know about it?: Scarredand worried about......Read More

Posted on: 2007-12-17 17:14:37 | Rating:

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The world at Lake Pond.
Trees losing there leaves, just becoming branches flowing in the wind soon to be covered with a white blanket of snow. Men in a circle talking in a lanugage I don't understand. Geese on the green grass picking for food, and an icy pond not yet cold enough to freeze. Homeless sleeping under trees......Read More

Posted on: 2007-12-15 16:18:14 | Rating:

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My beautiful cut.
It's almost as my cuts heal right when I slice them open. They dont look crazy anymore.They look normal like it 's just apart of my body. You should see it, the little bubbles of blood resting on the fresh cut. It so beautiful. I can't help but smile and laugh after it's done. I feel so real....Read More

Posted on: 2007-12-14 01:15:46 | Rating:

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It hurts to know there are people out there like y
I wish I would have never brang my journal out with me a couple of days ago. My boyfriend read my fist entry "pain blog" and laughed. I don't understand how someone can laugh at your feelings when you feel so hurt. I guess I don't need him anyway. It just hurts to know that someone can......Read More

Posted on: 2007-12-13 21:24:50 | Rating:

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Ryan.
I've currently been happy and all bubbly. That's not normal coming from a fifteen year old suicide risk child. What can I say I just got a boyfriend about three weeks ago and he makes me crazzy. I like him so much. Because I have been having such a wonderful time, I haven't been in the......Read More