Okay, I'm really new at this, but I'm not new at running my mouth.
And let me just say that I honestly don't care if anyone reads this or not. (seriously I don't) Its just so I can RANT. You know to help me understand my emotions.(hehe)

Anyway I am a writer, its in my blood, I have been writting since I was thirteen years old. And this coming march will make it six years that I have been scribbling my thoughts onto any and every available surface possible. I love to write poetry. If it hadn't been for writting I wouldn't be alive today. Maybe oneday I'll tell you what happend to me, but since I don't feel comfortable doing that just yet, I'll keep on ramblin'.

Anyway I want to be a published writer for Ellora's Cave. http://www.ellorascave.com/index.asp
Which for those of you who don't know it is an erotica and romance publisher. It was created by Jaid Black (thats her pen name) and she writes some pretty good stories, The site has other writers like Evangeline Anderson, Angela Knight, Reese Gabriel, and Lisa Renee Jones. Anyway in order for me to be published writer I have to write a decent story. Thats my problem, I have thousands of ideas and plots in my head, but i havent been able to pick just one. And when I start on a new story my mind goes blink. I have to sit infront of the computer close my eyes and visualize my (i guess they'd be fantasy) thoughts. Then I try to take what I am seeing and Put on paper, (in this case on the computer).

Ellora's cave does some theme stories, they give you a subject and you have to create a story within their guidelines, and then you submit it. Right now I am trying to come up with a story that matches their rules. But all my plots are blurring together. I'll figure it out, i have until september 1st to do so and i know i can. Its just going to take a while.



Anyway tell me about your day