I miss our talks, I miss our texts, I miss the closeness we shared.
I know it's me, I know I'm the one that pulled away.
I'm great and 100% there until something goes wrong, then I tend to run a mile, head for the hills, hide under the doona, anything to protect myself. So I dont get hurt.
I feel like I've done the wrong thing and I think I may have pushed you into making a committment when I shouldnt have. I should have known it wouldnt work....
I think the appeal of Rod was because on some level I would never truly love him and I knew he would never love me and so could never hurt me...
With you it was so different. I felt close to you, wanted you in so many different ways and I fell in love with an ideal, with a possibility, with a dream.
Lessons are so hard to learn
I know it's because i'm too rigid but I cant change who I am inside.
Maybe one day...in a while...who knows
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