I had it all figured out
until I met you
All the mistakes I had made
I had learned from them too
I knew all my faults
but still proud to be me
because I'd made it through so much
and I was still standing but barely
You knew he had hurt me
When I needed him more than ever
We buried our son
And then he left me forever
Then I met you, my other half
You said you'd give me the world
You said I'd never hurt again
As long as I was your girl
You held me up
You never let me cry
You were everything I had ever asked for
I no longer asked why
Then we had my Daisy
the sunshine in my skies
I loved you for giving me an angel
The heaven in her eyes
I don't know where it went wrong
but it did while I had my back turned
I fought for a long time now
And over the time I've learned
You lied when you said you loved me
You promises where hollow
Accepting who you are now
Is a hard pill to swallow.
So now what do I see
When I see my own reflection?
That weak girl I'd beaten
Who now stands at life's intersection
The roads are busy here
One wrong move could crush my existence
I'm crying and I'm scared
The seconds mocking me with persistence
You did this to me
You haven't loved me enough
You don't ever see me
This journey has been rough
I'm so used to having you here
But what's that mean?
I am used to being mistreated
I'm used to being overlooked completely....
I hate you for the person you are
I hate that I love you
I hate you for the wasted years
And for all you've put me through
I reach down and grab my legs
Move damnit, move
Why the fuck are you standing there??
What do you have to prove??
Sad and full of self pity
I'm disgusted with myself
I hate who you've made me
I'm not me, I'm someone else.
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