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So it's a little bit after 2 in the morning here and I can't sleep at all, The worst part of it all is I have a stupid doctors appointment later this morning and all I can do is sit here at this stupid computer and do nothing.
I have abunch of crap on my mind that won't go to rest so I can't sleep. But this is just a typical thing for me. I've cleaned my house did all the laundry and cleaned the fish tank and still no sleep and no rest to my wondering mind.
There are like 4 main things that are on my mind and are keeping me from sleeping. Maybe if I tell people that I don't know about them I can sleep, I know if I tell my friends or family they'll just worry and want to talk about it or something...
So first of all is the whole job situation....I HATE my job...And yeah I know no one really cares all that much for their job but still...I don't get paid that much for all the crap that I end up having to do. I do everything and then I still have to do my job on top of that. Sense I'm doing everyone elses crap I'm not doing my job that well and then I'm getting my ass chumbed on and it's just getting old, Plus I think my boss is racist. Myself and like four other girls are treated like we're slaves(No I'm not black I'm white and my boss is a mexican.) And the other 5 girls that work for him are mexicans and they don't have to do their jobs and they are NEVER where their suppose to be or doing what their suppose to be yet they don't get in trouble. Plus they all stand around talking in spanish knowing we don't understand what they are saying and then looking at us and laughing...I think it's RUDE.
And then theres Money....I mean yeah I've got some but sense I've been in the hospital and having to go to the doctor every other week it's NOT enough. My credit card payments are late and I've had to take out loans and now I can't pay the stupid things off. I don't want to ask my parents for money and I dont want to have to ask my friends for money but I don't know what the hell to do about all these stupid things that I've ended up getting myself into.
Plus theres the doctors they are driving me nuts with all these stupid test they want to run on me and it's like I'm a test rat or something. They put me on meds and then they take me off of them and put me on new ones. And it's just like come on make up your minds and leave me be!!
Then theres my best friend....She keeps calling me crying and bitching about things that I told her that was going to end up happening and I don't know what to do for. All I can do is listen to her and tell her that everything is going to work out fine when I don't have a damn clue if thats the truth or not. And she's worried that something bads going to happen and I don't want to tell her that it's not but I don't want to depress her and tell her that it is. I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm running in this huge circle!
I hate not know what to do or what to tell someone. It drives me crazy thinking that I'm not helpful. So yeah. Now that I've got all this off my chest and don't feel like my head is about to explode I think I'm going to go and try to get a couple hours of sleep before the doctor starts poking and proding at me like a test rat. Goodnight guys....Talk to you all soon,...Bye.
XoXoXo
Kate
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Posted by Katie_208 on 2007-11-16 03:15:00 | Rating: | Views: 43
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