+I'm feeling very peaceful and comfortable right now, so i can write rationally and not get flustered.

+It's Thursday...MAYBE going out tonight but probably not. 4 of my good girlfriends and i had Girls' NIght Out where we would go clubbing every thursday night. NOT ONLY have they been inviting boys which isn't bad, they don't really invite me anymore. I haven't been in 2 weeks for various reasons, one of which i was sick the other nobody wanted to go out because everyone went out Wednesday night and didn't tell me. I'm getting so sick of being left in the dust and not being informed of plans. My best friend, love her to death, but she complains we never hang out anymore when SHE'S the one who is always with her boyfriend (They have been dating for about only a month, mind you). We've been friends for almost 2 decades and she hasn't even given me a call. Every time i call her she's with Ryan(boyfriend) staying over his house or out with him or something. He treats her like shit...he doesn't satisfy her sexually and he accuses her of not being over her ex, whom she LOATHES. AND she met him at the club when he was drunk. What a winner. It's just so annoying.....You think your friends would always have your back, but sometimes there are things more important than yourself...like boys.

+I'm going home this weekend on Saturday a.m. . I was going to go home friday but i'm doing Halloween things with some of my new girl friends (ones who don't ditch for boys and tell you everything that's going on). It should be fun! Then on saturday night i'm seeing the boyfriend...he's presently on break. We're going out to dinner then just spending the night at my house. I'm so excited to just relax with him and be home.

+ I have two tests tomorrow...yuckk. I should study but i got sidetracked (=

+Time to go do something productive...maybe.