Trying to put "Darby"* *not her real name out of my head is impossible. I've tried to not think about the situation so much, to no avail. She runs through my mind, whether I'm doing something called "work" or something else. I see her, I smell her, I can hear her in other people's voices. This is very frustrating. Trying to put her out of my mind is driving me out of mine.
I need to talk to her soon, but won't be able to until Friday night. Until then, I'll need to put my thoughts on other things. I've tried to do some reading, but I'm just not in the mood for it right now.
I know I've been awfully grumpy lately. It's just that there is so much going on that should be right, but turns out to be wrong. I've got medical bills that are going to take me another 5 years to pay off, and I don't think my parents are going to be around for that much longer. I look at them sometimes and I compare them to when I was in school. They seemed old then, but not anymore. I wish I could let them live forever.
Of my parents, my father seems the most "frail". He's already had 3 heart attacks (well, technically they were called "events"). He seems all right now, but when is the next one going to hit? Tomorrow? Today? Even right now as I write this?
Yes, I know. My life will go on when that happens. I know it. It's just that I've never married, and it doesn't look like I ever will. My parents will never see any more grandchildren. They won't be able to pass on any of their wisdom.
Wow, this is a depressing line of thought that I'm following. Let me switch gears before I go slit my wrists or something.
I have been working on GTA: SA more since the last update that I gave on it. I think the mistake I made whenever I first made the 100% completion was that I didn't leave enough territories in control of the other gangs. See, my biggest complaint about this game is the rival gangs will try to take over your territory. Now that's not too bad. But it sucks that they keep trying to take over the same territory time after time after time. Maybe if they tried to take over a different territory each time, it would be better.
Well, that's what I was working on before I started working on this, so I better get back to it. I'm doing the races right now, and just finished the Los Santos races after finishing the airplane races. All I've got left are the San Fierro races, then back to the storyline. I'm working on the Caligula heist now, and then the little bit left at CJ's home. Of course, part of that is taking over territories, and the biggest problem of that is actually finding the triggers. I've got a mini-gun now, so that makes the territory fights easier to trigger, and win. So, let me get back to doing that, and I'll write again when I can.
Be safe.