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KaiAyn's Blogs in May 2008

My Nutshell
I have been away from my blog for a while now and today, for the first time, I feel the peace? the need? the yearning? the energy? the ability? to get some of my feelings down on paper (so to speak?) smile. I have been living in GB for ten months with R, my 57 yo SO. We have had a roller......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-07 17:35:58 | Rating:

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As time moves on, so do I....
So much has happened in such a short time. I've been gone from GB for over three weeks now. I have reconnected with my friends and will be meeting new friends this Friday. I'm excited by all the possibilities of life coming my way. I tried to tell R all the things I am.... I'm......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-07 19:44:09 | Rating:

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Anticipation
I'm going into Salem today to stay with friends. I'm puppy sitting while they go to a Mariner's double header! My best friend is turning 50 tomorrow and I can't believe she's that old! Its awful! Mostly because I'm three years older than she is! sigh I'm......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-08 12:52:26 | Rating:

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What a glorious day.... smile
Today is an absolutely gorgeous day! The sun is shining and the birds are singing. They flit and flutter all around the bird feeders. Singing their songs and enjoying the sun. I have been out in the backyard playing with the puppy and watching my old girl lay quietly in the sun. If it......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-09 17:41:25 | Rating:

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Celebrate Life, the alternative sucks! grin
What a great weekend I've had! Taking care of Duncan has been such fun. He is lively and slightly crazy!Keesha, being as old as she is, didn't appreciate his spontanaity. I have to give her credit, she only snapped at him once and it was because he stepped on her. She didn't like that......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-11 20:10:23 | Rating:

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Monday pains...
I have been so incredibly tired today? Experiencing a lot of pain and a bit frustrated with the whole thing. I feel good mentally but physically, I'm not having a good day. There is a part of me that wants to take my pain meds and just go to sleep for a while. I hate whining, but today is......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-12 18:47:33 | Rating:

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A time to share...
This was sent to me by a friend... and now I'm sharing! Enjoy This should probably be taped to your bathroom mirror where one could read it everyday. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true. 1. There are at least two people in this world that you......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-13 19:12:48 | Rating:

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forever a friend....
For those who have read my blog, you know enough about me to know how painful it was to receive this from R. I've never felt so alone . . . as I am without you. He did everything he could to push me away, to have his freedom and his "own" life, to......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-14 15:24:08 | Rating:

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Can't sleep....
I didn't blog today or technically yesterday. I was tired and feeling some pain. I think about this blog often. I spend a lot of time talking about how I feel... physically, emotionally and spiritually. Today is a physical day... I have been experiencing a lot of......Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-16 04:26:45 | Rating:

| Views: 80 | Comments: 0 | Tags: cancer life love

Never give up hope....
I heard this on an episode of Grey's Anatomy.... I've heard that its possible to grow up? Never met anyone whose actually done it. Without parents to decide, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We thow tantrums when things don't go our way. We whisper secrets with......Read More