Thoughts.com Blogs - Anticipation

I'm going into Salem today to stay with friends. I'm puppy sitting while they go to a Mariner's double header! My best friend is turning 50 tomorrow and I can't believe she's that old! Its awful! Mostly because I'm three years older than she is! *sigh*

I'm also going on a "date" of sorts? I have had an e-pal since September 07 and recently he gave me the addy to his best friend and the three of us have been writing.
He has a wonderfully awesome outlook on life and the world in which we live. He has two marvelous dogs and lots of cats. There is this sense of love and awe with the planet and his attitude is so like mine... we both cherish each new day we're given.

His best friend has been through some rough times, but she too is filled with fun and life. She's had some immense struggles and she is quite the fighter. Taking what life gives her and pushing forward. I admire her courage.

We're all meeting tomorrow for dinner and I'm hopeing we'll continue to be e-pals, but also move on to a good and lasting friendship! I'm a bit nervous, but then I'm always nervous meeting people for the first time, face to face? Its this whole body image thing... short hair due to chemo, oddly shaped body due to limited exercise abilities. Over all tired look, due to sleepless nights and some physical pain? Just the over all image I have in my mind.

The funniest part is, I still feel really fat! I used to wear a size 28 jean and now I'm in a 12. My brain still sees the 28 body standing in front of the mirror. I can see where people with anorexia get it. While it will never be my problem, I like eating too much, I have empathy for what they see and feel when they look in the mirror.

But all that aside, I am filled with excitement and anticipation to meet both G and R tomorrow. It should be quite the fun evening.

Celebrate life all....
Kai