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May we all be coffee....
Coffee You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again. A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-24 23:42:07 | Rating:

| Views: 13 | Comments: 1 | Tags: cancer life

Cancer - part two
I forgot to mention, my cancer has been diagnosed as "active" again. I started chemo this week and while its scary, its also necessary and as Jack tells me... I'm worth the fight because the world is a better place with me in it. I didn't believe that when in my last......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-22 04:39:39 | Rating:

| Views: 34 | Comments: 5 | Tags: cancer life love

Growing up
It's Thursday night, soon to be Wednesday morning. I should be in bed, but I have the urge to write. Question i s, do I have anything worth saying? I have feelings, thoughts, ideas and hopes, but I learned in my last relationship, people don't want to listen, they don't want to face......Read More

Posted on: 2008-08-22 04:26:42 | Rating:

| Views: 16 | Comments: 0 | Tags: cancer love life

Thoughts
Fat Ugly Useless A freak Jesus said, Turn the other cheek But its battered and bruised too! So much pain I can no longer weep....Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-21 22:56:44 | Rating:

| Views: 36 | Comments: 1 | Tags: cancer life

What is the motive....
Sometimes I wonder at people and their motives. I finally learned and now understand, that my ex was cheating and treating me like I was a pimple on the butt of the planet because he didn't want me... I was someone who wanted a one on one relationship. He was looking for......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-11 21:35:56 | Rating:

| Views: 33 | Comments: 0 | Tags: cancer life relationships curiosity

Countless faults...
This is another one of my sleepless nights. The ones that give me the feeling I'm spinning out of control. Sounds echo in my chest and focusing, both mentally and visually, is difficult. It gives me the same feeling as the one and only time I smoked pot. I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-06 08:08:11 | Rating:

| Views: 51 | Comments: 2 | Tags: cancer relationships

So many losses.... why?
I want to write, I want to feel the thoughts I have floating through my heart, reach my mind and become words on this page but I'm confused, a bit angry and horribly sad. What is the purpose of death? I have been sitting here contemplating death. I have had two friends die this year and......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-29 16:35:19 | Rating:

| Views: 53 | Comments: 1 | Tags: life death cancer

Wednesday night thoughts...
I don't know how to ask... My oldest nephew told me once, I was a burden on my entire family. He was angry because I was leaving the state. I was on my way to be near my son, daughter-in-law and my grandchildren. But according to him, I was stupid and a burden.......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-19 01:35:45 | Rating:

| Views: 49 | Comments: 3 | Tags: life love

Friday the 13th is wonderful!
I just spent the evening with a very kind, sweet, generous, gentle and amazing soul. He loves animals, he loves this wonderous planet and he loves life and all that goes with living. It is the best evening I have spent in almost two years. I didn't have to cringe once! ......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-14 06:17:14 | Rating:

| Views: 49 | Comments: 0 | Tags: cancer life friendship

That special someone....
I got sick last night. My body once again betrayed me and I woke up in a mess. I'm alone and it still devastates me. I wonder how I could possibly think about giving myself to someone... no matter how much I long to be in love with someone I can talk to , laugh with and communicate all that is......Read More