Well to tell you the truth I can’t remember much. In fact I hardly remember my child hood as all. I think that has been my way of coping with it. What I do remember was. I was lonely. My life consisted of school and my grandmother (mums mum). I have heard from people that I was spoilt but I don’t see it that way.
I remember a life of being shuffled to home and back to my grandmothers at all hours of the morning and night. Mum and dad were always working. They were chefs that worked spilt shifts. I can remember been woken early hours of the morning and taken to my grandmothers. She would take me to school and pick me up at the end of the day. She would take me to dance classes, ballet classes, piano classes, horse riding or what ever else I was doing at the time. If I wasn’t practising one thing or another I had to study. (Orders from mum, via my grandmother).
I remember nana always trying her best to ease the load or make things a little easier but some how mum would know. Nana would fed me dinner and put me to bed then late in the night mum or dad would pick me up and take me home. On the rare weekends I would get to spend a few more hours with mum and dad, though they were very few and far between.
I remember working hard to achieve high grades, be the best in my class. But it never seemed to be good enough. Mum always found something to criticize. Like the time I got honours and a gold medal with a score of 96/100 for a ballet exam. I was so proud of myself, however instead of mum being happy she pointed out what I did wrong and that I had better fix them and practise harder. Life was like that with everything I did. Nothing seemed good enough for mum, no matter how hard I worked at it.
So with this pressure I didn’t have time for many friends and those friends I did have, I was only allowed to socialize with them when I was at school or any of the extra classes. I was never allowed to have friends over, and we lived on a rural property so the closest neighbour was a fair way away.
Thats all for now
KP.
Dreams and goals makes life eaiser to cope with. 
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