To blog or not to blog that is the question, (sorry Shakespeare)
I thought about this blog for a long time, do I have to justify or explain why I blog to anyone. The answer I came up with is NO, I don’t. I asked some people for their opinions, and took in what they said, and basically it comes down to no I don’t, but do what I want.
However knowing me, I know that this will play in my mind for a bit, and the outcome may not suit me or anyone else. If I choose to ignore the question then I will be self critical and possibly never post another blog. Because I will have convinced myself that I have nothing worth saying. Then I thought if I do answer then some people may never like me, then I started to worry about that, because I don’t think I am a bad person and I have hoped I have never said anything to anyone that may have offended anyone, (ohhh and if I have I am so so sorry, that was not my intention). And then I started to think why I should let that worry me if someone doesn’t like me, we can not be everyone’s friend. And I guess it is because I don’t like to be judged. For most of my childhood I felt that I was judged by my parents and it plays on your mind.
So as I like to say don’t judge a book by its cover, find out what is in the inside before you make your judgment. And if once you have found out what is in the inside and you still don’t like it. Then sorry! I am who I am, and I am not changing for anyone but me.
So why do I blog, for me it is many reasons.
Like many people I have many thoughts going on in my head. I have written in a journal most of my life and unfortunately over the years some have been lost on moves, or destroyed when I have been in a huge self hate mode, and then come to regret it later. This way it is a little more permanent.
Why do I need it permanent, well if I die before I get to tell my children about me when they are older then they will have something to have, that they can get to remember and understand the person I am. And this will also be for my other daughter if she comes looking for me and I am not around. She will be able to learn about me.
I hope that blogging my life story, I know that there is much more I can talk about, but at the moment I choose not to. But slowly I hope that it will surface, and maybe give someone else some comfort or guidance, or understanding and hopefully a laugh now and then.
Another reason was because we, Whiteknight and I wanted to give everyone the chance to read two sides to the stories. With many post here it is always one-sided, and I am not sure if is it just me, but sometimes I wonder about the other side to the story.
So that is some of the reason I blog. And yes I will continue to blog for as long as I can, and when I have something to blog about.
Posted by KP on 2008-04-03 09:27:12 | Rating: | Views: 101
KP...I too have lots of thoughts running through my head. I really like the idea of having both sides of the story and I appreciate your candidness in blogging. I don't do well with criticism, or people judging me either. I am sure it is a flaw in my character, that I am unable to accept criticism. I do however listen and think hard about what people say, just like you.
We all need to be accepting of each other in this world. I don't find your relationship with WK to be a bad thing at all. People who see things only in black and white surround us. I personally see the gray areas and the black and white. I am accepting of your situation and I totally understand WK's feelings on the matter. Life is hard..and things are not always cut and dry. I encourage you to continue to blog regardless of the comments from others. Remember we are all in different situations and at different stages of our lives. Noone can truely know where you are coming from and how all the events in your life have affected you. Have peace as you face your coming days..and know not everyone judges you harshly. Peace:) shemelts
I am glad you will continue to blog and I look forward to seeing how your story unfolds. Like Shemelts, I see things in grey tones as well and would never judge your relationship with Whiteknight. I wish you both nothing but happiness and I am glad that, above all else, you blog for YOU and that it makes you feel good.
yes please do continue, KP. Besides the whole point of blogging is to be honest to ourselves and let out what we truly feel. Everyone wont understand, but there are people who will. There are people who can relate to your blogs. There are people whose lives seem to make sense because of the stuff you and WK are going through. The fact is that both of you have been honest about everything from the beginning. Please do continue. No one knows or understands your situation better than the two of you. So dont let people's judgements offend you. Keep writing, like I saidm your blogs are helping me make sense of some of the stuff going on with me...I can relate to this, so thank you. Lots of love and luck to both of you.
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