Thoughts.com Blogs - Stepping into the shadow.

"Life is what you make it", I have heard often enough, but sometimes we are dealt issues, hardships, heartaches, and whatever else, and I wonder why. Why? I didn’t ask for this or that, I would never have wanted my life to be the way it is had I had the chance to have a say. But then as I write that I also know that I could have stopped things from happening too. If I had just said no, if I had just listened to the advice instead of thinking I know what was best for me. And granted some of my choices have been great, I have three lovely children (yes one is adopted but she is still mine in my heart, just not in body).

So last night I have made a choice, and obviously I don’t know whether I have made the right choice for the future, but for now it is.

I am stepping into the shadows of WK life. I am doing what I have asked him to do over and over again, to take time and think and sort out the issues that he has. As I write this I am hesitant on is this the right thing to do considering what we have, what we have been through and possible what we may go through had I stayed in the light. And yes I may be choosing the wrong time to do this considering the week I have had, but this is something that has plagued my mind for a long time. I know I have even blog about this in the past. The one thing that I am worried about is if we say something to each other that we will regret, (more so me the WK. My emotions are riding this roller coaster ride at full speed).

So WK, I am taking myself off the pedestal and I am going to shine in my own families life for a while. Which you already knew as I told you this, and yes I am telling the world first, just like you thought you could tell me to get me to answer you. I am not trying to be mean or heartless, (though I can guess of a few other words that may be said); I am just trying to be the stronger one.

For the last 6 months or so I have come to understand my strength more and I am no longer afraid to stand up for what I believe in. And as you are well aware I have asked this of you for some time.

So to all my friends out there that I have come to cherish I will still be around here and there and I will still post when I have something to say. As long as you all don’t mind the rambles of a crazed woman.

Oh and yes I still care deeply for WK, and I still love him with all my heart and soul, but as the old proverb states,
“If you love something set it free, if it comes back to you it was meant to be”