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 Happy Birthday to you
Twenty years ago you come in to the world.
Twenty years ago I held you in my arms.
Twenty years ago I cried, and a tear landed on you cheek
Twenty years ago I said good bye
Twenty years ago a piece of my heart died.

Twenty years ago you were given to your family
Twenty years ago you brought them joy
Twenty years ago they watched you grow
Twenty years ago they moulded who you are
Twenty years ago a piece of their heart glowed

For twenty years I have watched you grow
For twenty years your pictures cover my walls
For twenty years I have heard of who you have become
For twenty years I have ached to know you
For twenty years I have wanted to tell you, I love you

Happy Birthday my darling girl on this your twentieth year.
Please know that for the past twenty years and for the next twenty years you will always be in my heart and mind forever.

I want you to know that giving you up has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do and I hope that one day you will understand why I did what I had to do.

I hope that I don’t disappoint you and that you will one day want to know who I am. Just as much as I want to know who you are.

I am sorry I wasn’t there when you cried, that I never saw you take your first step, I am sorry that I wasn’t there for your first word, your first day at school, your first dance recital, or your first crush. I am sorry I wasn’t there for your first break up and I am sorry I wasn’t there for your first date. I am sorry that I missed you growing up and become the most beautiful women that you are. I am sorry for all that I missed. Please forgive me.

Happy Birthday Z
    Posted by KP on 2008-03-04 11:05:30 | Rating: | Views: 148
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What I need to say needed more room than this, so read my blog post about ARE YOU A GOOD PERSON?
I can do that as the boyfriend ...LOL
Posted by  whiteknight  on 2008-03-04 19:45:23 
  
Much love to you...this is awesome.

XOXOX
Posted by  nikilynn1113  on 2008-03-05 13:04:05 
  
"A Birthmother puts the needs of her child
above the wants of her heart."

Skye Hardwick
Founder of "Life Mothers"

Dear KP --

What a beautiful sentiment to your daughter. Reading it brought tears to my eyes. Giving up a child for adoption is the ultimate demonstration of unselfish love.

I disagree that you were not there for your daughter ... while not being there in a physical sense .... you were present, in her life, spiritually. Many times, we fail, to acknowledge the power of the spiritual realm. Your thoughts and prayers, for your little girl were felt by her ... they gave her strength and made a difference in her life.

As a little girl my Grandmother didn't live close by. I saw her only occasionally. On one of those visits she pulled me aside saying .... "Colorado do you know how special you are to me .... Do you know that each day I pray for you and ask God to help, protect and guide you. Her words made me feel very special and loved. More times than I could count I felt Grandma's loving prayers throughout my school day .... sometimes it was when the answer would come, while taking a test ... sometimes when the school bully left me alone ... at other times when my misplaced homework magically showed up. While not there physically I felt my Grandmother's presence (through her thoughts and prayers) each and every day.

I pray that your daughter, at some point in time, will want to know you and desire a relationship with you. When that time comes I'm sure she will have countless stories to share in regard to the thoughts and prayers sent up, on her behalf, by you.

Peace.
Posted by  ColoradoDreamin  on 2008-03-05 16:52:05 
  
After 20 years, and you still remember & long for her....It clearly proves that you are a good loving mother. Wishing you the very best.
Posted by  Gwatlan  on 2008-03-05 17:55:22 
  
That was absolutely beautiful...She will love it one day....
Posted by  Hollis  on 2008-03-07 07:40:12 
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