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All I want to do is cry. I have a silent scream raging within me but I cannot let it out. I’m haunted by recent decisions I’ve made, but I know I would have regretted not making them. That was a lose/lose situation.
My sweet angel is leaving the nest. No, she’s not going far but still, she’s leaving home and starting her life. “This is supposed to happen”, I tell Myself. “You’ve raised a wonderful young woman and she will continue to make you proud”. But right now, Myself is not listening to I. This morning I dropped her off at the train station to catch a 12-hour trip to the edge of the state. We’ve ridden plenty of trains, tubes, busses, planes, etc., but that was mostly when we lived in the UK. Not something we typically do here. I’m surprised at how nervous I am.
I’m over the hill excited that finally my hubby’s coming home after being gone for 19 months. And this excitement isn’t like Christmas excitement, or going on holiday excitement, because those excitements are short lived. They eventually end. No, this excitement is because of changes coming for the good – and it will not end because he does not have to leave again!!
Oh, and all I want to do is cry, but there is no one here for me to cry to or share my excitement with. How pathetic can I be?!
My daughter’s daily quote this morning (I’m not supposed to look till lunch time she tells me, but I couldn’t help today because 30 minutes after leaving her at the station I already miss her!).
God’s strong hand is on you; he’ll promote you at the right time. Live carefree before God; he is most careful with you. – 1 Peter 5:6-7
Sorry, I’m not feeling it……..
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Posted by KBmyAngel on 2008-07-23 08:40:12 | Rating: | Views: 75
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Nothing is harder than letting go...be proud of yourself for raising an independent person...you must have done a great job!
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Posted by slowtolearn
on 2008-07-23 14:45:52
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Your daughter left you a quote a day? That is so thoughtful of her.
And the quote she left you that you just shared.... beautiful.
Thank you for sharing, I'm enjoying catching up... and your husband is coming home. Fantastic! xx
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-07-27 02:21:19
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