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Ok so here we go again. It's coming up to 2 in the morning and yet again I can't seem to sleep. This has been going on for quite some time now. I wish I could pin point on specific thing that is keeping me awake at night but really that's just not going to happen. There's so much on my mind right now that I can't possibly just "clear" my mind. that's what someone suggested I do to try and fall asleep, I did try, I'm willing to try anythign really just to get one good nights sleep, but it just doesn't happen.
I was going to write about my family and give a bit of a history lesson as to why I don't really get along with any of them anymore, but I realized that if one of them stumbled across this they would more then likely be quite hurt by what I have to say. And although I don't have a picture perfect relationship with any of them, I also don't want to hurt them. I love my family......... but I don't like them.
The short version of what I was going to say is basically this:
I hate the fact that my brother and sister were given everything and bailed out of any problem situation that they would have found themselves in. But what do I get? NOTHING, I have paid for everything. I have been given nothing. Some might say that I'm probably a stronger individual because of it. I suppose that may have some validation, but it has also given me more stress/angst/depression/anger then I would wish on anyone my age.
venting has made my eyes heavy....... maybe I'll sleep now.
Fingers crossed for no dreams...........
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Posted by JustJam on 2008-03-19 04:34:12 | Rating: | Views: 50
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Hey why don't you try watching movies/tv or listening to music my dad and I do this when we are very much disturbed , and I even cry alone to my heart full and then i feel relaxed and go to sleep. See if any could help you.
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Posted by neha1987
on 2008-03-19 05:18:29
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