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so i deleted my last blog, because i felt it was uncalled for and i was just really in the moment of being upset. i don't usually ever talk like that about people. it was just really rude and i didnt want people on here thinking im a moody asshole. so everything is fine with my bf, he had texted me the next day as if nothing happened, which was good because i didnt really feel like i had to apologize. i was just looking out for him, because i care a lot for him. anyway, so today was a nice day. my mom came in my room this morning to wake me up so we can leave. i had assumed we were going to the beach since she had been wanting to go since like saturday. the day before, which was my sister's birthday my mom was in a bad mood and left the house with out telling anyone where she was going. it was rude and uncalled for, but she said she needed to get out and away from everyone. shes been feeling suffocated by her boyfriend of 11 months. hes been at the house the past five days, which is unusual, but hes been working on the backyard and working on it so it looks nice in time for my mom's birthday. my mom hasnt been with anyone for awhile, since she broke up with her ex fiance about seven years ago now. shes been hesitant of being in a relationship, because she is always use to doing her own thing and having her own freedom. well anyway, i told her the night before how rude she was to leave the house and not even tell her boyfriend while he was working away and wondered where she went. this guy is so incredibly nice, you have no idea. i wish i had someone as nice as him, because all he wants for my mom is for her to be happy and we would do just about anything for her. on the way to the beach, she had called him to "talk about things" her intentions were to break up with him because she had realized that she didnt deserve him and didnt want to drag on the relationship if it wasnt going anywhere. i turned to her asking her "what the hell are you doing? did you call him to break up with him?" and she responded saying "well yeah...i thought that was the easiest way", i yelled "no, thats the coward way. you were with him for eleven months, you at least owe it to him to tell him to his face" she stayed silent. we got off the freeway to go to-ugh okay now i never shop at this place and i refuse to, because its just not my style, but it was the only retail place open at nine am and i needed shorts. i dont own one pair, because i hate the way my legs look and in jeans they look so much better lol. so she told me to go inside while she talked to him. i was in there for about fourty five minutes and surprisingly i actually found a pair of cute shorts that were worth buying. they were black with pinstripes. they almost looked like a pair of volcom shorts i wanted to get from nordstrom awhile back. AND they were only like 16 bucks! it was pretty much a steal, especially since i had to pay for them and being unemployed and all. i thought my mom was going to buy them. they asked if i wanted apply for a merveyns card. i said no right away, not because i hated the place, but i credit is shitty like no other lol. but i guess even if i wasnt approved i would still get 15% of course i didnt get approved, but i got the 15% haha. anyway, i wore the shorts out and they were probably like the cutest thing in that whole store. walking out with my new oh so fabulous shorts and shirt from h&m and my knockoff ray ban waivers i walked back to my moms car to find her still on the phone.
fifteen minutes later she got off the phone and we were on our way to the beach. we were listening to my mom's ipod with all her love songs on there, thats where i get being such a romantic, because of her. we were singing along to all of them. before the ipod use to be mine and she left a few of my songs on there so i was looking through the ones that use to be mine. i put on this song that i looooved since senior year, because it reminded me of my first love who now is with my ex best friend..long story. this guy who started out as my best friend all through out senior year and we were unseperable. our friendship kinda led to me falling for him because we acted as if we were with each other. like in a relationship. i wasnt out and i was still finding out about myself and he was supposedly straight, but our relationship is a WHOLE other blog to write about lol. so yeah the song was called "undiscovered" and its on ashlee simpson's first album, which i absoultely loved. anyway, when it started my mom was like oh! i love this song!..i turned to her and said "you do?" and she was like yeah! we were singing the song word for word, it was the weirdiest thing. she was telling me why she loved it so much and it was because of her ex fiance, it remided her of him. i was like aww, yeah ive loved this song since her cd came out, like my senior year of high school. we listened to the song more then arrived to the beach, but went to eat at this little place before we hit the ocean. at lunch, she asked if she can ask me something...she said "why is it that you like that song so much?" there was an awkward silence. like i wanted to tell her, but i wasnt comfortable telling her and i know she wouldnt feel comfortable knowing the reason why. so i just said "i just really like it, its good". then we left it as that. after lunch we were looking for what area to park at by the beach, i then realized there were two broken hearts in the car, my mom and i were so alike its crazy. we relate to each other so much. we were both feeling the same pain, only she didnt really realize that because she doesnt exactly know what im going through. her and i did a lot of talking and surprisingly she opened up to me a lot. it was really a great beach day=)
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Posted by Juniorrr on 2008-07-11 03:01:06 | Rating: | Views: 89
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