Thoughts.com Blogs - Overwhelmed

Are you ever so totally and utterly overwhelmed with a task that you don't even know where to begin? Has your house ever looked like a nuclear testing site? Have you ever thought that it would be less stressful and taxing to sell the house you're currently in and buy a new one? Do you wonder if your landlord would still give you a good reference if you just moved out and left him your stuff in exchange for the rent and the astronomical maid fee he'll need to fix it up? Have you ever blogged all day so you don't have to face the mess "out there" in the rest of the house? Have you ever feigned a migrane as an excuse for leaving the housework undone? Do you wish you could pile all the mess your beloved hubby has left you and deposit it on his pillow?

I confess to feeling and doing all of those things. I'm not lazy or dirty, I just have a hard time getting started. Do you detect a bit of anger and resentment? Perhaps. I'm only human. I have my days. I will always believe that men do NOT GET IT when it comes to housework and raising kids. Sure, they may hold down a good job and be faithful, but WHY can't they comprehend and appreciate the extreme amounts of energy that go into being a "housewife" and "mother"? I know I am very lucky to be able to stay at home and write. I get that, really I do. I don't want to be a bitch (and I try hard!) but there comes a time when I feel under appreciated and taken advantage of. I guess that sort of goes hand in hand with the job description so I just need to suck it up and deal with it.

For all of you "communication" types out there, YES, I've talked to him about it, and NO it doens't make much difference. LOL. I believe marriage is hard work. I believe raising a family is even harder. No one ever told me it would be ME doing most of it.

If I won the lottery (which I can't afford to play) would I change things? Sure! I would love to have a seaside cottage, prepay my children's college fees, buy my mom a house, buy my dad a house, send my brother a nest egg for his new family, and do some travelling around the world by myself. Will this ever happen? I'm pretty sure the answer is no, but it doesn't stop me from wishing and dreaming. Who knows, if I ever DO strike it rich, I will already have a TO DO List.

In the meantime, I will pour myself another cup of coffee, take out the trash, put out the dog, bring in the cat, empty the sink and wash my dishes. I have a mountain of laundry to fold, another yet to be washed, dinner to be planned, and floors to be mopped.

As I look around from my computer chair, I see a dozen more things that are calling out to me. I am not answering them today though. It's Monday and I am ...

Overwhelmed!