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I wish I could friggin understand why I put food in my mouth when; a. I am not hungry, or b. I am not hungry anymore.
That is my simple and yet unanswered question of most of my life. For instance, I am so unbelievable stuffed from two apples and probably 1/2 jar of peanut butter, and what crosses my mind? What else can I eat. Because it IS simple. This is and addiction in my mind. If it was not and addiction of my mind then I would be able to listen to my aching body to not put anything else in it. I am busting at the seams as it is. Literly busting. I have not developed a hernia in my c-sections area. My weight is pushing so hard that poof there goes the muscle walls.
So why is it that Alcholics and Drug Addicts get to be hospitalized and helped through the weaning process, but we overeaters face this alone. In our own homes, with our own checkbooks, our own fridges, our own pantry. Fuck that. Why are they so #$%^&*() special. Put them in a room with a bottle or a line and see how long that #$%^&*() lasts. They will break. It is simple.
So as I write this I am thinking of getting the Lap Band Surgery, but until then I have decided to go back to OA. I am so unbelievably tired. Tired of limited mobility. Tired of popping pills for tons of ailments. Tired of not being able to play with my kids. Tired of the stares and snickers. Just plain old tired. |
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Posted by Journey2theCenterofMe on 2008-07-23 00:48:28 | Rating: | Views: 43
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Hey, I know its so hard and I wish there was an easy answer. My moms friend is having similar issues. I recently came across this blog when I was looking for online support for weight loss. You should check it out. This guy is amazing, and he has great food recipes and calorie counting tips: http://zeusmeatball.blogspot.com/
Good luck!
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Posted by KarKar
on 2008-07-25 14:33:45
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