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I find it so easy to be negative. I am a realist, practical, and logical and I see things as they are. Frankly, if you look at things as they are, in this world, its always going to be negative. That, of course, doesn’t encompass everything. You hear stories of heroism and good deeds done by certain men and women, but as a whole, its generally negative. Mass media races to be the first to the scene of a horrible car wreck or fire, but what about the 6th grader who raised hundreds of dollars by selling candy bars to donate to charity? That’s why I don’t watch the news. I am negative as it is without having to be fed propaganda by some news anchor with a powdered nose and cheesy grin.
To be honest, I am just sick of everything. There are only a couple of things I want on this planet before I am taken off of it. They both kind of go hand in hand. The first, as stereotypical as it is, is love. As I type that I realize how cheesy it sounds, but its true nonetheless. I thought I had it once, but I am not quite sure if it was real. I want to have that love that cannot be broken. The love, that despite any circumstance, I know she will be there. I screw up so much. I need love that forgives. I need love that transcends time and distance. I need love that needs.
The second thing is children. I don’t know what has come over me the last couple of months, but that want has sprung up inside me. There is nothing more incredible than having something dependent on you. It is a humbling thought. I want to give them unique names and teach them all the things I have learned throughout my life. I just hope when I get to that point, I won’t be as lazy with that responsibility as I have been with others. I always have big plans and I never follow through. That has to stop now before I have a human life dependent on my choices and decisions. It gives me a nervous feeling in my stomach just thinking about it. A human life, dependent on my hands. Sobering.
This post has been all over the place, but I think it builds on itself. It starts out talking about negativity and ends with the most incredible thing God has given us here on earth (in a matter of speaking). It also shows me that I have to change my attitude if I ever want to impact my wife and children in a positive way
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Posted by JoshWasHere on 2008-04-28 10:28:32 | Rating: | Views: 79
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