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He commited a crime. He hurt me in a way that is unimaginable to any humanbeing. It happened a year agon and I still cannt bring myself to find the words to even really try to talk about the horrible incident. I close my eyes and his face hunts me in my sleep. I fee his white subbled beard rubbing against my whole face. I lie down and he's there. I know somhow and somenwere he is wathcing me, he is followig me. He is always there and never seases to leave me be. No point trying to ask anyone for help, people a just too busy for that these days. When you do ask for help you words get twisted around till the meaning of waht you have said gets totally fucked up. I go out and feel hime following me, he's there. Its as if he is a stalker. He's stuck to me like glue. Outside is not safe, Inside is not safe. There is only danger out there and in there now. He lurks everywhere. He taps on my bedroom widow at night. I know its him, but hid in bed under my covers unitl the tapp tapp tapping goes away. I hate going to be at night partly becuse of HIM. He makes me so dirty bothy physically and sexually dirty.
Showers have becom my OCD. I spend all day in them to try to remove his dirt from me. I scrub and scrub until my skin is red. That never helps though. I get out and am still drity. Dirty like never before. The dirt is still there. It never seases to ever go away.
He is there. He haunts me in my sleep, he huants me in the street siletnly lurking, following and watching me. He is part of my nightmare that never seases to go away.
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Posted by Jewls on 2007-09-21 07:43:02 | Rating: | Views: 102
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