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I fucking miss you… =(

I fucking miss you so much right now.
I so badly want to text you…

Muffins… please talk to me.. I miss you… I love you so fucking much. More so than her.. more so than anyone else ever can ever…I love you with my eveythingggggggggggggggggg =’( I would DIE for you… for reallies… nothing feels right with you gone… oh please please please please please realize that….please please please please talk to me.. please please try... i miss you sooo fucking much... i fucking miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you please ='(

I don't text you because I am scared you wont reply… or you will get mad at me… or maybe you don't want me to talk to you =( maybe you are happier thinking I might be dead… I don't know…
I don't understand why you said you would text me day after day until you know that I am okay, and then say nothing for … a week and a half and counting =( please stop it.. please text me… please care?

It makes me feel awful for not texting you right away…. I didn’t because I don't want to feel usedish… =( but now I know if you ever talk to me again it doesn’t matter… if you need me I have to be there for you because I love you so so so so so much… I hate this. I want to help you with what it was you needed… I don't want you to ever feel any negative feeling because of me =(

I have been having such a rough last couple days… my head hurts… I cried to sleep last night… I cry every day… every night… every morning.. I cried in my dream last night even… you are my whole world muffins… I feel so shitty and awful without you.. please please pease please oh please tell me you still love me? Please tell me you still want our future and will work for it later? Please tell me I made you happiest again.. please realize I did and want it… I cant help that I cant be there with you in real life… I cant help it.. I would do anything to go there but I cant… but I will.. =( I really want to be wif you so badly… =( =( =( =( =( =(

Ughhh…my head… my eyes…. I hurt everywheres…. I don't want to live anymore… I am in so much pain… It is possible to live without you but I don't want to… it hurts too much… my life is empty and meaningless without you… you are the one that truly made me happy.. the one that gave me something to look forward to and work towards… without you… what do I have? I wont ever love someone as much as I love you… you forever have my heart……forever and ever and ever… even if I don't want it to be yours that’s too bad……….. the heart wants what it wants…. And it wants you. Muffins
You and ONLY you….

Forevers….

I am nothing wifout you…. =(

I think I am going to take some pills and pass out crying now…

Muffins….baby...sweetie… loves… please… please text me before this week is over… if you don't I don't know what I will do… I cant stand this… being apart from you hurts my soul… cant you feel that emptiness? We are soulmates I know it =( I might not ever forgive you for what you did… but I ove you still though it all.. love you so much… that means something doesn’t it? That proves something right? I ove you so much I still want to try… I cant give up on you.. on us.. I cant… our future looked to amazing to let go of… =(