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AAAAH
I am stuck in a trap. I have had a really rubbish 2 weeks. I am binge eating and being really compulsive. Each time I keep trying to stop the cycle I fail- and now I am feeling really low and desperate. I am almost certain that I am going to end up a fat and lonely failure. Today for example I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-02 08:14:57 | Rating:

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nasty, nasty
Well, I am a horrid person. All I do is eat. I am so fat and lazy. This week I think that I have had chocolate every day. And at least one bag of Chrisps. I cant seem to regulate my appetite, or my compulsive eating. I don't know why; maybe it is coming off the fluoxetine, maybe it is my......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-10 08:35:28 | Rating:

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I'm doing good
Well, I think I am feeling a little self-congratulatory- but actually I am feeling really blessed just now. I am in Dublin, and have been all week on my own. I am excited to have Mike coming over tomorrow and I realise now that I am going to love being a dentist. I have really enjoyed it here,......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-18 09:55:47 | Rating:

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wow, inhibitions
I have nearly been married 1 year. It has taken until this last weekend (that is 50 weeks) for my husband and I to get past some of the expectations and inhibitions that come from being married very quickly and also from not living as man and wife before marriage. I am not, in anyway......Read More

Posted on: 2008-07-22 17:03:37 | Rating:

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tears, fears
I am writing this from Surrey, leafy surrey, My best friend got baptised today, and I felt the hand of God on my heart. I am not going to drink until I can be sure that my heart is in the right place. I have been having a glass of wine, and just wanting to get smashed- but I want to have God's......Read More