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Yaweh is God
I was feeling really cerfuffled this weekend, got myself so tired that I fainted in the garden and then got really ratty with Mike. I then proceeded to eat a whole tub of icecream which pretty much ruined the whole weekend. I was doing Sunday schoool yesterday so didn't get to hear the......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-02 03:37:26 | Rating:

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My Epiphany
Yesterday I had a brilliant day. I have titled it an Epiphany because in some ways I kind of saw God in a different way entirely. I had coffee with my friend Gillian, who is also a Christian. It was a really interesting time as I aired all my issues with Christians and how I am feeling. It......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-04 04:10:27 | Rating:

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mistake
Well, I have had a good-ish week, but am still feeling like I have to tick off each day as it comes or else I won't get through the month. I am very stressed and I can see that more clearly now. I feel like I am holding my breath, but I am not sure exactly what I am waiting for.......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-06 08:25:37 | Rating:

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Back to the grind
I am in uni, and it feels like Monday- but in fact it is Wednesday! Brilliant! only 3 days until the weekend again! Hurrah! I just had a really hard weekend, with the young church day away (a success!- all credit and praise to GOD for the sunshine!) and then Sunday was our......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-11 03:29:24 | Rating:

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let me get off!!!
So, even though I have had a really light work-load week... I have had to stop the world and get off. I went to my GP yesterday as a result of some stupid self harm and downward cycle activities... He has just told me to STOP. And... I have. I bought a jigsaw yesterday and have been watching......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-13 05:55:35 | Rating:

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A few home truths
I had a good morning this morning. I had a meeting about my research, and also I had a really good psychologist appointment. I have been talking to sarah about how I have been in the last few weeks. It has been an enlightening experience. I have realised that I have been sabotaging my......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-19 08:17:21 | Rating:

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Exams over
So this morning I had my last exam. I am totally euphoric that they are over now. I get my results today at 5pm, so If I haven't passed I think I will blog again today, but if I have Mike is taking me for a nice meal and we are going to do the quiz. I haven't blogged for a while,as I have......Read More

Posted on: 2008-06-26 06:49:40 | Rating:

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attention seeking
Well. I am pretty depressed today. I had an awful evening last night. I passed my exams, and Mike was going to be taking me out for a meal. Great, you think... me too. I found out that my friends baby has spina bifida. I was devastated and I am scared about what I did to my body......Read More