Dear M,

Well, I have to get up in four hours because tonight I short change for work so that I go from working noon to midnight to working midnight to noon.  I work six hours from six to noon and then am off until midnight then work a full shift.  Sucks, but this is my life.  The therapist I was highly interested in emailed me back immediatly and I have responded to her email.  This makes me excited.  I will call her when I get home and start up sessions.  I believe this will really help me deal with my childhood neurosis that hold me back from a happy relationship and from a happy life.  The shackles might be released.  Today, I worked hard and had a great day.  There were field auditors out because of our string of incidents and they stopped me and my co-workers.  I spoke how I felt and one guy took it so keenly that he offered for me to come to the main office in Houston to help him on a project that he was to be working on.  I stood up to my supervisor today too.  Not mean, or harsh but as a man and being assertive.  Today was a 9 and as close to a ten as I could imagine.  Ragen and I did not talk about a whole lot today.  She did say she was horny and would appreciate my touch when I got home.  She also says that she is being her "crab" self lately.  She is a cancer by astrology and is acting stoically now.  She says she is tired of introspection and has relapsed into her "shell," to just not deal with it any more.  She needs these breaks though, she gets overwhelmed easily and when she gets overwhelmed then she really shuts down so I am glad she is taking the necessary steps to prolong her change by minimizing her "fuck it," tendencies.  I love her.  So somewhere around a 7.  We should talk more but I want to do much of this face to face instead of over the phone.  Happy birthday, and good night!