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Being a not to good photographer, a year or so ago I decided to invest in a digital camera boasting some 6 million pixels, equipped with a 'Carl Zeiss' lens and a 12x optical zoom. After buying this marvel of technology and accustomising myself with all the fucntions advanced or otherwise, I was pleasantly surprised with the first stream of results once I began taking pictures and downloading them to my computer for viewing. No more did I need to go and visit a chemist in order to get 'the film' developed, those days were now gone for all time!
Now armed with this camera and augmented by Adobe photoshop 7 it soon dawned on me the potential I had at my finger tips for photographic invention and graphic design. I found that working on images and layers in photoshop was not only fun but very rewarding when working on a design which included an image that I had taken to begin with. Once I reached and passed the apex of a learning curve and began to get better with the camera and all its manual settings etc, Truly amazed I was with my newly discovered effortless photographic achievements! Then I turned the lens on myself and was totally horrified.
Do I really look like that? cripes! Not having had my picture taken of late by anything of quality camera wise, I was not expecting to look at myself, pores and all in perfect clarity resulting from a picture taken with the 'macro' function turned on! what happened to my youthful looks? I was forced to concede I am looking older these days.......smeg!!
Thinking about it though, a friend of mine recently acquired a 9 million pixels digital camera....that's a big one I thought, Ooeer! My friend was thinking exactly the same thing I was when it comes to looking at yourself in a high quality digital image. My friend was intimating also the same concerns about looking older or not as good as one once did. I showed my friend the images I took of myself but they did not have the same affect as they had had on me when I viewed them! Hmm, why is that I thought? My friend did the same thing, and showed me some pictures taken with the 9 million pixel camera....I didn't think they looked bad at all but my friend did, and does!
So, what is happening here? I was forced to conclude that there are two perceptions of any individual, one internal and one external. The internal being how you view yourself and the expectation that everyone else will think of you as you consider yourself to be or look, the second, or the external, is how other people really perceive you to be, but the two are very different aren't they? There's me thinking I look like a smegger but my friend thinking not, and then there's my friend thinking the same thing and being wrong too.
I guess it just goes to show how many realities there are, or how many realities we think there are, either way we are rarely right about what other people really think about us.....it's all an insecurity, an illusion...click...click...click. |
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