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Girls xpress self harm music video

2009-05-27T14:20:56-04:00

how to hide self injury scars video

2009-05-26T12:46:06-04:00

Ricochet-Shiny Toy Guns

2009-05-07T15:02:45-04:00

Raven(My Second Personality)

2009-03-12T16:20:08-04:00

I have been feeling like there is another person inside of me. I do things that I wouldnt normally do and when I remember what I did or said I feel like it was just a dream and that it wasnt me. Hours can go by an I wont even realize it sometimes. Some days I look in the mirror and feel like im not looking at myself at all. I sometimes feel that im outside my body looking down at myself. I have named my second personality Raven. Raven is trying to take over but I think she will. I have no control over her. Sometimes I wish that would be my main personality.

Forgotten

2009-02-26T13:19:18-05:00

Well I havent blogged in a while for those of you who have read how my mental stae is getting worse well I still have days like that but I also have some good days to. If you dont know what im talking about read my blog "Am I having a mental breakdown?" which should explain some things. Anyway I am now 18.Yay!!!!!! My hair color is now dark purple and I have a second piercing in both my ears. I was lucky enough to take a break from school and go visit family in Chicago and my older sister in Michigan. Even though I dont really feel comfortable around my family.(which is sad.) Anyaway, Me and Bobby have been dating for 80 something days now. Im still cutting myself but who knows when that will stop. I have a cool pen pal named Megan. A never really broke up with me(his phone was turned off that was the reaon he wasnt texting me. He is in a diffrent part of AR than me. So I had to tell him that I was dating Bobby. SO yeah I ended up breaking up with Adam. SInce he works so much I cant really talk to him. I miss talking to him but I dont regret dating Bobby now.) My parents seem ok they havent argued in a while which is good. My little Freshman sister isnt caring about her education. My older sister is talking about getting married. As I type this blog im dreaming about one day being a well known writer. known for my wit, humor, thoughts, etc.......That would be great. I would want to write for magazines, write novels, poems, and maybe be a book critic in newspapers. I LOVE TO WRITE! I need to start writing my book and trying to get it published. Well thats all for now.

Am I having a nervous breakdown?

2009-01-15T13:02:12-05:00

I keep having dreams about people dying, getting killed, me killing them, being left alone, and mecutting myself. I feel worthless a lot and think about harming or killing others. I also think aboutsuicide a lot. I attempted suicide 4 times so far. At times I want to stay in bed and block everyoneout. I am also cutting myself. I have been cutting myself on and off for 3 years. Am I having orabout to have a nervous breakdown?

?????????????????

2009-01-13T14:21:05-05:00

My thoughts are racing and there isnt a time of day were im not thinking about something. I wouldnt describe myself as a violent or homicidal person much of the time. But than again I dream about being alone, people leaving me, I once dreamed about gooing to hell, people dying or getting killed, cutting myself, Or me killing others. I also think about killing others or hurting them. I think about killing people in diffrent ways or killing my family. My moods are also unstable. Myabe im going insane. I told my friend about what I was thinking and dreaming about and he said I was crazy and that he was scared of me now. I would never tell my therapist any of this. My therapist would probably put me in a mental asylum. Sometimes I feel like I should be put into a mental asylum for a year or a few years. I don't know what I should do antmore. On the outside it looks like im ok but on the inside I am slowly dying and going slowly insane. I might not tell my other friend or my bf because I don't want to scare them off. I know that im not going to tell anyone in my family about how I feel.

Labels

2009-01-12T13:18:41-05:00

Emo= Emotional, sometimes a perspn who self-harms, dressing a certain way, listening to a certainn type of music.
Goth= Someone who is dark and like vampires, occult, witches, diffrent religions, a certain type of music, the way you dress, your attitude, and how you view things.
Loner= Some who likes to be alone or avouds the company of others.
Preppy= Someone who dresses a certain way, maybe a chearleader, sometimes popular, happy.
Anti-social= Someone who doesnt like social situaitions.
Self-harmer= Someone who cuts, burns, or harm theselves to either make them feel better or to feel alive.
Jock= Someone whois invovled in sports.
Outcasts= Someone who doesnt belong to a group.
Popular= Someone who pepople want to e friends with.
ETC..............................
There are so many types of labels people use to describe someone but sometimes these labels can be wrong. Labels are useless but yet I find myself using them sometimes.

I want to publish my book

2009-01-09T15:30:19-05:00

I would like to publish my book that I am writing without self-publishsing but dont know how. Can someone give me some suggestions. It is a horror novel.

Dreams

2009-01-06T13:09:24-05:00

A lot of people have dreams. Dreams about their fears, goals, things you wish or want to happen, dreams that don't make sense and some nightmares. Dreams to people are just things that happen when you sleep but they do have a meaning. My dreams are not normal. Some of my dreams deal with my fears but some deal with death. I dont know if I should call them dreams or nightmares. In my dreams people, are dying, bleeding, getting killed, or I am killing them. The weird thing is that the dreams dont scare me. I have dreams that don't make sense. I wonder if haveing dreams about people suffering or me killing people means that I really am crazy.

Poetry

2009-01-06T13:03:53-05:00

Poetry is an expression of your inner most feelings. Sometimes writing poetry can help you realize the feelings that you dont understand. It can help put your feelings into words. Reading poetry can also help you realize that someone else may be feeling the same things you are. It could make you realize that your not alone or going crazy for feeling the way you do. Just becasue some people dont understand what you are thinking, feeling, or going though doesnt make you crazy or weird.

Emo Kid!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-05T14:32:21-05:00

Im so very EMO EMO EMO!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been cutting myself on and off for three years. This will be my beginning of my 4th year of cutting myself. I wonder how long I will cut myself. I cut myself now not because im numb or dealing with my emotions or I feel guilty about something. I cut myself now because I want to feel the pain and to see my own blood. Maybe a weird reason but thats why I cut myself mow.

Update

2008-12-19T15:33:18-05:00

Were moving but I wont have to transfer schools. I was going to transfer schools but I didnt want to leave my boyfriend B or my friend T behind. So me and Bobby have been doing things but im not going to tell were or what we been doing. I will leave that to your imagination. I failed Geometry so now I have to take it over again. At least I passed my other calsses with either an A or a B. Anyway I really wish I could meet Bobby's parents. I hope I get to meet them soon. Anyway, I started to rewrite my horror novel called 'Dark Angels' and once im finfished writing it im going to try to get it published. I have been writing in my diary a lot more lately which kind of helps with my Depression. The movie that I really want to see is Twilight. Im on the third book in the series. I was reading Twilight way before it was made into a movie. Today is the beginnig of my holiday break. I will be out of school for two weeks. I wont be able to see B for two weeks. Which is sad. Hopefully I will be able to find a way to go see him. In January me and my mom are going to Chicago for a week or two to visit relatives and my older sister and her new boyfriend. I cant wait. I wish Bobby could come to Chicago with me. I want to stay in a relationship with Bobby for at least a year if it is longer than that than that would be okay to. Well thats all for now. Until next time. O. I woud like to hear your opinions so please leave me comments. O. Me and Bobby finally kissed. Yay. We kissed twice in one day. Please start leaving comments on my blog. Thanks.

What will you do for the one you love?

2008-12-19T15:16:33-05:00

A girl and a guy were speeding over 100mph on a motorcycle

Girl- Slow down, I'm scared.
Guy- No, this is fun...
Girl- No it's not. Please, it's too scary!
Guy- Then tell me you love me.
Girl- I love you, now slow down...
Guy- I love you too. Now, give me a big hug.
-She gave him a big hug-
Guy- Can you take off my helmet and put it on; its bothering me?

In the newspaper the next day a motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road the guy realized that the breaks were broken he didn't want the girl to know. Instead he had her hug him and tell him she loved him one last time. Then he had her put his helmet on so that she would live, even if it meant that he would die. If you would do the same for the person you love copy this in your profile.

11 signs that your in love

2008-12-19T15:14:54-05:00

==[:11 SIGNS THAT UR IN LOVE
ELEVEN:You walk really slow when you're with them.

TEN:You feel shy whenever they're around.

NINE:You smile when you hear their voice.

EIGHT:When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you, you just see him/her.

SIX:They're all you think about.

FIVE:You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.

FOUR:You would do anything for them, just to see them.

THREE:While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.

TWO:You were so busy thinking about that person, you didnt notice number seven was missing.

ONE:You just scrolled up to check & are now silently laughing at yourself. (POST THIS IN YOUR PROFILE IF IT MADE U LAUGH OR IF U FELL FOR IT)

Paramore - Decode (Twilight Soundtrack)

2008-12-18T15:04:31-05:00

Surprised!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-15T12:35:46-05:00

Well Bobby asked me out and at first I told him to wait because I just ended my relationship with Adam. Than the very next day I told him yes that I would date him. Anyway, Bobby drove me home Friday and got to meet my parents and siblings and they all approverd of him. My granny made me irritated over the weekend she told me that I was the reason why my ex-boyfriend Adam left me and that I was going to make my current Boyfriend Bobby leave me. Whch is a bunch of BS. I told her to be quiet because she didnt know what she was talking about. Than when I told my dad what my granny said he said that A must have found a new girlfriend and didnt know how to tell me. That didnt make me feel any good at all. Well my friend T said that my boyfriend Bobby wouldnt leave me and I believe him. Also when Bobby got off of work he and was driving home he was hit by a car and he went uncouncious for a few minutes. The guy who hit him drove off and now he has to Bobby has to deal with what happend. I feel bad for him but im glad he is okay. Me and Bobby do things but the good thing is my parents dont know about it. I got the new cd by Pink.

Pink-Sober Music video

2008-12-10T14:57:29-05:00

So Far...

2008-12-10T12:26:51-05:00

So far I told my Bobby that I like him. SInce he already liked me. My bf hasnt contacted me in two weeks so im going to take that as a sign that he wants to break up with me. I also told his best friend Trent that I like him as well. So than I told the person Bobby that I like his best friend as well as him. He wasnt angry and he didnt think I was a slut. He just told me he knew about it because I mess with both of them. I hope i didnt mess things up for me and Bobby. Anyway I have another therapist appointment in January and im not looking foward to it. I stopped taking my medication. My immediate and my grandma knows I stopped taking my medication but nobody else does so I have to lie and pretend that im taking my medication. School sucks. I might be moving. So I might transfer to a diffrent school. I been to the school before but I went out of it becuase it was to big and there was to many people there and I couldnt handle it. Plus there were a lot of rumors going around about me. I know I can handle the school this time and I know I can handle whatevere people tell me. I just really hope I didnt mess things up with Bobby. Im going to try and talk to him today to see whats going on. I hope it goes well. Almost forgot Flyleaf has a new song out called sorrow and Pink has a new song out called Sober. You should watch the video to Pink sober. Its intresting. I would like to know what your thinking so leave a comment. So, I decided to not kill myself. Yay. Whatever. My dad got sick so we had to get him stuff like always. I read some of my old blogs and realized I went though a lot and im surprised im not dead or in a mental hospital for life. I have been put in a mental hospitals 6 times and been to three facilities. Just try to leave me a comment. Ok?

I wish I could go away.

2008-12-05T14:58:58-05:00

I wish I could just go away and lock my feelings away in a trunck or a something else. Someone that I really care about want even contact me and im really sad. Im listening to Sorrow by Flyleaf I posted this video here. I cant stand how my heart hurts everytime I think about him or hear his name. I might like my friend but I dont want him to hurt me either. I cant stand this doubt that clouds my mind. I wish I knew what to do but I dont. I thought my bf cared about me but he hasnt contacted me in a while. I wish I could go away. I want to die. I asked the boy I might like if he thought I was weird and he said he thought I was normal. I find that hard to believe. I wish I could die. My hear t feels like its shattered into a million pieces. Im afraid of getting hurt again. Im going to try to kill myself. Im going to try to kill myself. I cant stand being here anymore. I hate my life. I will leave my family a letter explaning why I did it. I hope they want be angry with me. The person I care about want even contact me. I thought he cared about me. I might like my friend but I dont want him to hurt me. My Depression is getting worse. I cant stand this. So good-bye and it was a pleasure to meet all of you.