So.. its the next day and he wants to act like everything is good and dandy. Whenever we have a confrontation and argue about something, he always wants to make things all better. Get right back to acting as if everything is fine, nothing ever happened. I don't know why he still acts like that's gonna work after as long as we've been together... i have told him a million times. And to me it only seems like something normal.. but i cannot just shut off my emotions like a light switch. Maybe its a woman thing? Any men reading to give me some insight on that one? It's not like i have gotton any kind of solution to the problem or closure to it. He still tells me i am mistaken in what i heard - And i (a hard headed girl indeed lol) still don't think i have any problem with my hearing... but i've thrown a few monkey wrenches into his story so we'll see if anything results from that. And soon hopefully..

This will be the third blog, with the paragraph above being the second and this one being the third. Feeling just a little lazy today... Okay, so i got a few comments on my first blog. This is a kind of reply/rant to one of the comments. Confront him? HA i did, i tried anayway...  I'm tellin you, this guy is a piece of work! He really is sooo good at what he does lol if i wasn't in a relationship with him i would probably be asking him for some pointers. I call it his "style of argument." He has this way to twist and turn and manipulate the situation, pull out all the distractions he's got up his sleeve. It's like watching some great actor working his craft in action. One side of me is saying,"ha, he's full of shit." And another side of me is saying,"But damn, i'd give him an Oscar." First its the swift move of denial, next he goes for the speedy change in tone to a flaming roar of anger (like an innocent man being convicted of something ridiculous)!! After that, he slows it down a little and acts as if he's so tired of the argument, and then goes directly to history..."it's not just this incident, its everything" (things have been pretty good lately, and its not like we argue all the time. not like that at all, clearly this is an attempt at distraction and situation manipulation.."let's not talk about this situation right now, lets talk about everything all together.. yes! Thats the answer! If i ramble on a little, she'll start to forget the details and pretty soon this will be over! no more questions, no more accusation! yes!") By this time people, normally this is where the beauty of it all comes together. So i'm sitting there, just listening, i have barely had a chance to say anything. But hell, i've gotton so tired and feel so exhausted just from listening to him, i dont have the energy or the patience to even argue back. Absolutely beautiful. I basically end up saying (a lot of times, quite literally) "yeah, okay. i'm sorry too" Ahh yes.. but this was no normal argument. I know what i heard, i was right there.. so i stuck to my guns.. but i let him think it ended. We end up going to bed, he sleeps on the couch (there's a small couch in the bedroom) he tells me "i'm sorry i didn't want to argue." Shit, me neither, i just wanted a few answers about something. Then, ladies and gentlemen, he adds a twist to his BIG FINALE... he starts ...... with.... the SNIFFLES! I'm sitting there and i just cannot believe he's actually (i dont want to say "crying" wasn't really crying.. i would say on the verge of crying but thats too long.. so i dunno but you get the point) ... i just couldn't believe it. All i wanted was for him to answer some questions and the answers actually make sense with what i know i heard. And this prompts tears? So let me ask you people, how many actors do you know personally who can cry on scene in one take? Apparently i know one, but he's never gotton a gig. So if anyone knows a show that needs some extras or something, let me know. Ha! (did i waver because of the tears? Not even a little. Damn right!)

(Sidenote: I know some of you may think i'm a little cold after reading that last part, but i can assure you that this is not the case. It's just this relationship has hardened me a little and made me a lot smarter. Also, sorry for the long winded entry, i don't really like to type so much, but it was a double blog so...)