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Im sat here yet again thinking...does he love me,
yet again im thinking like this, wondering if he really loves me, i mean how do you know when they love you?
exactly...
you dont know, you just have to hope. except the fact that im not convinced.
Hes not the person he was when i met him...so maybe its me, thats changed him. I try so hard, and for what. He never wants to do anything i want to do...he has to be clever and disagree with me. And do you know what the shit thing is...I absolutey fucking love him, and I dont even know why.
He makes me feel special... sometimes...its just he doesnt do special things anymore.
He stays at mine every weekend...which I dont mind, but when he wants to do something to his car im out of the picture.
While im there adoring him, hes fucking adoring his car. And a month back he thought i wanted him for his car and money.
For starters, hes shit with money...he spends it on shit. Now im a student...and of course we spend our money on shit. But i havent got a job so thats all I have.
I said on Wednesday...Ill come to yours on Friday and he said "im doing my car with my dad"...but still thats not an impressive excuse.
I still wanted to go...I could go to his now, he lives literally 2 mins away...but I know hed hate me going.
So fuck him...ill stay here when he decides to come...because I dont care anymore, he does what he wants anyway.
Arent I so fucking lucky 
Well then if he wants...ill let him do what the fuck he wants,
he does that anyway...Im just dragging him down. I honestly dont give a shit...he doesnt listen, and worst of all....
I dont even feel loved or special :(
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Posted by Jadeyjay on 2008-01-25 07:41:20 | Rating: | Views: 35
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