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It has taken me so many years to finally stand up for me and finally get rid of the person who had hounded me, abused me verbally throughout my whole entire life.
Most ppl would assume it was a spouse of even a parent. But in my case it was my older sister.
When she got remarried and had a baby i thought things would change. I would excuse her behavior and defend her to my mom all the time. excuse it bc she suffers from mental illness.
it only got worse bc like attracts like and she ended up with a man who is just as hateful manipulative and crazy as her. So together they had tormented me.
Constant threats, constant harassments. Calls at any time of the night. you name it.
I have been called every name in the book by her. As soon as I would not do something for her, as in drop everything, and put her first, she would call me all sorts of names.
it may seem small but the last fight we had that i had finally had enough, was she believes that her and my nephew are the most important ppl in the world. I have a son, and he comes first period.
She was furious with me bc i would not take her son swimming. I had to pick up my son from school right at that time. And so i was called every name in the book bc I was picking MY son from school instead of taking her son to swimming.
Which she lives about 2 hours away from me too.
i had had enough. all these years of being told blood is thicker than water...well...i am not the one who needs to be reminded of that. I have been a sister to her since i was a baby. she has only abused me since i was a baby.
which i could go into some gruesome details, such as pouring hot scalding water on me and burning me...to sticking needles under the rug and and pushing me onto it.
we are not talking about the normal siblings picking on one another, such as pulling hair and such.
i am talking about things no one wants to hear about. sick and twisted. yes she was hurting too and that was one of the reasons why i forgave her so many times, hanging in there and just saying she needs help and she was just a child.
now she is 35 and I am 32 and instead of physical abuse its verbal and mental.
shortly after her being angry with me for not taking her son swimming, her and husband made threats and demands that i send them 5000 dollars. or else they will call the police on me.
i refused and told them to leave me alone.
It is sad it has come to this bc come monday i will file a restraining order. I am soon moving and they will not know where I live. And later on today I will be changing my phone number.
If anyone even remotely thinks to say...she is your sister...she is mentally ill and its family...dont even bother commenting. you have no idea what i have been put through for 32 years and finally now and today...i have had enough.
no one should ever have to deal with being constantly humiliated and degraded and ridiculed day in and day out.
I finally understand now...ppl who have been through abuse and finally there is that once incident that just pushes them over the egde and it may seem small to others, but year and years of prolonged abuse makes a person snap.
even if its something like fighting over who spilled the milk...you just snap and can't take no more.
i am sad it came to this but i have to take care of me now.
I have severe post traumatic stress disorder bc of this. It was affecting my relationship with my son, with my husband....and i have the right to live my life happily and not be tormented.
And I dont care anymore if its bc she's having an "episode". Deep psychosis. Well then she is a dangerous person who needs to be institutionalized.
All i know is that i deserve to live my life in peace. have a healthy relationship with my son. and have a happy marriage with my husband.
I do not deserve abuse anymore. I think 32 years was more than enough.
I am free from abuse!!
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Posted by JJwTheCrew on 2009-04-24 16:40:38 | Rating: | Views: 52
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