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Nothing stays the same.
I think people tend to beat their head against the wall. Rarely have I met anyone who don't use drama, and some people out there aren't happy unless something is wrong in their life. I looked around me and saw so many things and ways that I didn't want my life to be like ~ and in my late thirties, I truly started searching for the meaning of my life.
What is this journey all about? Seriously... Ultimately, our journey's are our own. There is only one person we will live with through our entire journey, and that is ourself. Ultimately, when we get down to it - there is really only one person we need to make happy, and no one can tell us any different.
You may decide on a lifetime of family. You raise children and try to teach them right from wrong and hope they slip effortlessly into society and then do the same as you. Make babies - make laughs and tears, and die. Or, you may decide that money is your pursuit - and you will work so very hard until you have enough. Maybe you'll work yourself into a grave, maybe until you reach your goal. Regardless, most people chose one if not both of the above.
What else is left? I'm sure there are several, if not many variations of life. It matters not when it is ourselves we have to please. Personally, I wanted (and still do) a family. I love children, and am one of those people who are loved by all children and animals; even those whose masters and parents claim they like nobody. Almost especially those types of beings. It just hasn't happened. I've, unfortunately, never met the one. They've all rather have dealt with drama than living. I've tried the money thing. I've been incorporated and put myself in front of a couple of the biggest retailers / wholesalers in the nation / world, let alone many corporate and private businesses. I've laughed and said that I made my first million before I was 25, and lost it before I was 26. Money comes and goes. In my life, it seems that natural forces know when I have money, and align to take it. It's when I have been at my most poorest that life has been easiest; go figure.
A couple years ago I started getting rid of my personal posessions. First it started with my big furniture when I moved in with her. (lol) Then it progressed into my DVD collection - my comic books, sports cards - excess clothing and virtually everything else in life I felt I didn't need. Presently I am down to one small storage facility, and plan on having it empty within a couple months. What then? I'll basicaly have my PC, camera - some clothes and music... bout it. I'd love to get rid of it all, but I just cannot see myself without computer, camera and clothing.
Getting rid of your belongings is very refreshing. Whenever I go to garage sales or flea markets - thrift shops and pawn shops - for the last two years I have constantly left empty handed. I know Ive changed, somehow. I honestly want nothing. WTF - am I depressed? lol - Don't think so. I've happier now than I've ever been, and that's something considering what I'm coming off of. I'm back to being single... alone but definitely not lonely.
I want to pick up and leave here. I want to find a small town west of the rockies and luck into a furnished apartment. I want to find a menial job - I could care less about retirement. Put me in a food line or old folks home, I don't care really - and I want to meet people. I want to take pictures, the kind that make people smile or get a tear in their eye (which I'm reall good at).
I figured that, for now - my meaning of life is to do just that - to live life. I want experiences. I want to meet new souls - I want to see new sights and touch and taste new things. I want to live. I don't want to beat my head against the wall - I hate drama. The thought of finding the casket without letting my spirit fly is scary - and I'm afraid of nothing.
Let Us Have Faith (1940)
Security is mostly a superstition.
It does not exist in nature,
nor do the children of men as a whole experience it.
Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run
than outright exposure.
Life is either a daring adventure, or nothing.
To keep our faces toward change
and behave like free spirits
in the presence of fate
is strength undefeatable.
by Helen Keller (1880 - 1968)
... and that came from a deaf blind woman. *wow*
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Posted by Introspective on 2008-05-08 08:16:54 | Rating: | Views: 177
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Nice article.
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Posted by ffeeona
on 2008-05-08 08:22:28
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you have been thinking some deep thoughts lately, you need to go out and have a little fun, rent some comedies and laugh till your sides ache. I think you need a little joy, what do you think?
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Posted by roe
on 2008-05-08 23:50:03
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Thanks ffeeona -
Thanks roe - however I ask you re-read my blog titled: 1 blog does not dictate my personality. I am a very happy person, contrary to how it may appear. I love laughter and I do it more than most everyday. Just because I blog about a 'thought' doesn't mean that 'thought' governs my day. Know what I mean?
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Posted by Introspective
on 2008-05-09 07:57:03
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