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Walked Away..........
I can't figure out how to live like this. There has to be a way. My situation isn't one that I can talk to ANYONE about....so intenet you get it.

You see he loves me. He loves the sound of my voice. He loves all the things I hate about myself. He made me beautiful for a minute. He loves my hair and my eyes. He loves the way I laugh and how I tell him to shut up. I soothe his pain. No one has ever made him feel the way I make him feel. He makes me smile without thinking about it. The sound of his voice makes my heart skip. He is the last thing I think about at the end of the day and the first thing I think of when I wake up. I feel  comfortable with all my flaws in his eyes. I love his crazy morning hair. I love his reddish beard. I love his crooked nose.  I love the ghosts that travel behind his eyes that make him who he is.

I love him. He loves me. We can't be together. Time was against us. We met too late. So to live knowing that he loves me like that and to never see his face or hear his voice again. It's been almost two months. I think it's worse knowing that we love each other but walked away from it.  How....how do I learn to live with this?
Posted by Imalive on 2008-03-13 12:11:32 | Rating: n/a | Views: 72


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Posted by
edeneyre
on 2008-03-13 12:17:59
 
I'm trying to imagine the pain of that experience. I was blessed-- I have the man that I love; so I can picture living without him and then I feel a little of what you're feeling. I hurt for you.

All I can say is, do what you know to be right-- not for yourself, but for others. If you cannot be with him because of spouses or children, focus on them, if they are yours. Learn to love them more than yourself.

Your happiness should never depend on any one person-- not even yourself. Believe that you have a great purpose in life, important things that you are supposed to do. Find those good things that you can do, the small ones and the great ones, and focus on making the world around you better.

You won't forget him. But time will turn the memory sweet, if you let it.
Wishing you peace and healing,
-Eden
 
 

Posted by
Whitters
on 2008-03-13 15:34:36
 
I have been there and done that... sometimes I still fall back and I find myself putting myself back into the situation of almost going through it again.
Its hard... time does help though.
 
 

Posted by
Imalive
on 2008-03-13 16:40:23
 
Thanks to both of you. I'm just waiting.....
 
 


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