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God I'm Pissed
You were supposed to be safe! You were married.....and you seemed genuinely happy. How on earth did this happen? How did you sneak into my life and make me love you? You told me things I needed to hear...yearned to hear. You made me believe them and despite everything I knew to be right I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-03 14:21:49 | Rating:

| Views: 10 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Son of a Bitch

All is quiet
I can't think of anything to write.....I mean there is plenty to write but none of it worth writing about. I don't know if that makes sense. My wit and charm seem to have taken a small vacation from my brain. I honestly think I've spent the last month or so totally ramped up on drama that now......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-04 12:23:11 | Rating:

| Views: 54 | Comments: 1 | Tags: bored quiet

Go Suck Somewhere Else.....
We've all experienced it...even if your afraid to admit it out loud. Secretly you want to scream with frustration...... There is that person in your life....that SUCKS. If your upset....then holy cow you should hear about their day, if your sick....my god you can' be ask sick as I was that......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-05 15:09:29 | Rating:

| Views: 43 | Comments: 1 | Tags: sucking

Walked Away..........
I can't figure out how to live like this. There has to be a way. My situation isn't one that I can talk to ANYONE about....so intenet you get it. You see he loves me. He loves the sound of my voice. He loves all the things I hate about myself. He made me beautiful for a minute. He loves my......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-13 12:11:32 | Rating:

| Views: 83 | Comments: 3 | Tags: Walking Away

I hate being right..........
I found a hand written journal entry that I wrote on Jan 6th 2008 when I predicted that this was going to hurt and hurt badly.......I hate being right. I'd really like to turn in my grown up card now. I want to go back to being a teenager when this type of pain is just as bad but gotten over......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-14 18:03:15 | Rating:

| Views: 34 | Comments: 0 | Tags: being right

One of those days......
When you walk in the office and you discover your boss had their laptop over the weekend and sent you 20 emails.....Happy Monday. The check engine light in your car comes on.......and then goes off......Hmmmm what does that mean......? It suddenly occurs to you that you may have forgotten......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-17 12:36:00 | Rating:

| Views: 45 | Comments: 1 | Tags: Monday

This Week
This week I should have been seeing you for the first time. This week I should have touched your face for the first time. This week I should have kissed your lips for the first time. This week I should have lain next to you naked for the first time. This week I should have felt your hands on my......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-18 11:39:20 | Rating:

| Views: 8 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Mine

Doing something wild
It's been my experience that in the midst of recovery I am driven to do something drastic. Once it was cutting all my hair off. Another time it was dying it a totally different color. I've gotten pierced and tattoo'd. I'm considering both again. Is it the need to change who we......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-18 13:46:58 | Rating:

| Views: 33 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Tattoo's and other painful things

Get Set Go...............
Today I would like to share a song with you internet. I'm not going to post it so that it plays wether you want it too or not but I'll post a linky or something so that you can have a listen if you like. I think this song is going to be my theme song for today. <object......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-20 11:24:48 | Rating:

| Views: 61 | Comments: 0 | Tags: Get Set Go.

After a few.......
I took a couple of days off. My brain hasn't had any peace in the last month or so. Naturally I did what anyone does on their vacation and moved their living room furniture around. No idea what I was thinking as it looks ok but not like I wanted.....and now it will stay that way if for no......Read More