I was going to write about my feelings and all that crap but i just can't gear up for it. I don't have another emotional purge in me today. It's the same crap over and over......Wash, Rinse, Repeat. Don't get me wrong it's all still there in a lovely festering pile that I am doing my best to ignore. I just don't feel like picking at it again today. I want to feel something new, something thrilling, something decadent and delightful. I want to grin like an idiot and laugh like a loon.  I need to feel that thrill of adrenaline chase through my blood....excitement coursing through my veins. I just want to feel alive again......even if it's just for a little while.