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Lonely - solitary, without company, companionless.
Alone - separate, apart, or isolated from others
What is it that makes me feel so lonely? I realize it's a curse I've brought apon myself. I have become so disconnected from everybody sometimes I even feel like im losing myself. I used to be so in touch with my feelings to the point of severe depression, and now because of that I am avoiding every emotion that has the capacity to break me down. I've gone a few weeks now with out a total breakdown, I've been taking better care of myself, and somehow I dont feel any better, I still feel alone and apart. I wish I didn't take everything so damn seriously. I find myself constantly being dissapointed, I turn the t.v. on and flip through channels only to find murder mysteries, war documentaries, and women being used for their sex appeal. I watched the world after people the other day and 6 degrees could change the world last night on national geographic, very interesting shows, but extremley depressing, but thats life I need to just accept it and have fun with the time that im here, but I want to make a difference, I want to help create alternative energy sources that are better for the environment, and I know not everyone believes in global warming, im not saying I do either because im not a scientist, but I do know that reducing the amount of co2 in the air can't hurt anyone. I'm sure everyone would enjoy cleaner air to breath. America is just too fast pace for me, im the type of person who loves long walks outside and yoga to center myself, I like to read for several hours at a time, and I love healthy food, I love fruits and vegetables. I want clean air, and a healthy environment, I just feel like America is not for me, I dont believe in a lot of the "norms" or morals that are pushed on us. I dont think everyones biggest concern should be looks or money, I think it should be about relationships and and being healthy emotionally and physically. I just feel like everywhere I go someone is jumping out at me with the new faster, better, easier way to get everything done... whatever happened to self determination and hard work. I actually read yesterday that scientists have created a pill that gives you the high you feel from exercising... so instead of going for a run or a walk to get that natural high, you can now take it in pill form. Just because we have the ability to develop things like that does not mean we should. self discipline barley exists anymore, and then we wonder why people are getting so lazy. Another thing that really got to me was this speaker who game into my governent class last year from the school board. He had this brilliant idea to make k-12 all online so children could do all their work at home. I was furious.. how do they expect these kids to learn anything about themselves without any other human intereaction, they would never learn how to function in society. everyone is becoming so self sufficient because of all the technology, so what happens to human contact it diminishes, you no longer have to talk to cashiers and baggers at the grocery store you can just check yourself out. the internet is so advanced that eventually people wont even call or meet up anymore everything will be strictly out of your own home. I can't imagine a life without human contact. I honestly could ramble on about all this for hours so Im going to stop myself and go workout, get the natural high that doesn't feel so natural anymore. |
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Posted by Idoart on 2008-02-11 10:47:16 | Rating: | Views: 84
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This is a fascinating post. Your comment about human interaction reminded me of a movie quote: "Only if you find peace within yourself will you find true connection with others." It's hard to imagine how this would happen with an all-online k-12 education. Thanks for sharing these thoughts.
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Posted by pgm
on 2008-02-11 11:11:44
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You should change the title of this post to something about modern society bringing you down...its not so much about being lonely as that. But, I think you have--as I have in a few of my posts--touched on some very potent points. And, each one that strikes a cord with me made me smile. Feel free to exchange thoughts on this sort of thing any time. Just try not to bring me further down:P I get depressed enough on my own from the issues. But, philosophy sharing for the betterment of mankind is good:)
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Posted by brainstormer
on 2008-02-12 23:23:44
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