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An idea is surging in my mind .I don't know what on earth it is.It's a feeling that i will disappear for no reason some time in the universe.I'm not feeling like committing suicide.It's a spiritual state i 'm thinking about.Once i close my eyes,i don't know what will happen to me ,nor have i any ider where it will lead me.It seems as if i was lost in deep dark,sinking and sinking,there are only breathing and heart beats can be heard...
People said i made lots of mistakes in my life.I don't know for sure whether they were mistakes ,to this day.What am i supposed to do with the past so called mistakes i made?If people ask me to feel guilty about them-----to be honest,i did that way before----i will do as i was told to,but it's not the life i want to live.I felt toutured in that way of life.
I'm still sinking.But now,i have stopped struggling.I come to close my eyes in peace ,focusing on the reasons why i 'm here,and what can be done to help.I'm lost in deep thought.It seems the time and space was freezed there.It's a wonderful state of mind.I'm happy,In a world of no light.How come in a world of no light a person can feel happy?
People said i will live a bad life,since the mistakesi made in my life.I don't know for sure whether they were mistakes or not,to this day.What the tomorrow of mine will be like ?Will i be rich or poor?kind or mean?I don't care.Indeed,i don't care.I'm seriously,because i have made up my mind to face up to the past mistakes,to laugh at the past me,to live a life of love delightly.
It doesn't matter whether i will continually sinking.I'm drinking in the darkness now.Is it quaint that a person would rather stay without light,without which people cant find their way of life?Whatever,i want to be that guy.
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Posted by Icesoul on 2008-01-31 12:27:49 | Rating: | Views: 139
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We can pick and choose the good and the bad in us, feiz, and focus on what we actually are. I think you are doing fine.
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Posted by Pauligan
on 2008-02-01 04:25:58
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Feiz, you are who you are, and that is a wonderful guy.
You know you have made mistakes and you will learn from them.
It will only make you a better person,
I love you for exactly wo you are, mistakes and everything, bless you hun,xx
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Posted by bubblydi
on 2008-02-02 06:50:29
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Destiny is so misunderstood.
Destiny simply is- the consequences of our choices.
Whether we make mistakes or not, we can learn something from it.
Take each experience as a life lesson.
That is taking in the light, and embracing your dark times.
We need both, to really experience the fullness of life.
You will disappear one day my friend.
In death you will fly free in spirit, and no one- but you and God- will know what is awaiting you.
Scripture says, that no mind can comprehend what God has planned for us.
This life is a journey, we can enjoy the wonders of the trip, as well as look forward to our destination.
I love you....Peace.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-02-05 12:54:47
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There is a story of a group of frogs who were racing to go up a very tall lamp post ... and every one stood around to watch...
They all ran as fast as they could with every one cheering....the frogs then started climbing the lamp post.. and everybody thought NO WAY they can do that.. they will slip... they will fall.... and they started shouting out at them that this is impossible.. come down or you will hurt yourselves... this is dangerous.... the frogs continued up teh pole.. but soon after that they started to slip.. one by one they started falling the high lamp post.....
One frog however, kept going up the post... and he finally made it.
Everyone was dying to know how the heck that little frog made it all teh way to the top... and they came over to ask him... HOW?
They soon discovered he was deaf...
He was able to focus on his goal.. because he didnt hear all the negative comment from everyone around him....
if you want to be someone .... be like that FROG! :)
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Posted by Traveler
on 2008-02-08 07:04:19
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Just checking on you my sweet friend.
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-02-09 17:29:10
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Happy New Year. - Be Travs frog. Missed you. Aunty ((((HUGZ)))))
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Posted by bede
on 2008-02-28 15:53:57
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Just checking in on you, i miss you,xx
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Posted by bubblydi
on 2008-03-03 16:44:48
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I miss you hun,xx
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Posted by bubblydi
on 2008-03-08 08:20:45
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That frog was a hero.That frog is not a frog,it's the willpower,it's the courage to face up to doubt.I hope i can have that spirit to carry on my life.
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Posted by Icesoul
on 2008-04-21 23:40:33
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