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IamwhoIam's Blogs in April 2009

A little calmer than usual
Listening to Seal. Calming my nerves. Tears come out still. I feel like these are my last days of misery. He sings of friends he had that couldn't make time for him. Just like me. Now look at him. Rich and happy., My problem is that i do not believe in myself and yet i get upset when others......Read More

Posted on: 2009-04-03 23:50:40 | Rating:

| Views: 29 | Comments: 1 | Tags: Seal misery

To the depressed
So I just read a few blogs on depression and it literally hurt me. I couldn't even comment on them. What would I say? No, you wouldn't be better off dead? I know their pain all too well and I know that telling them that it's going to be okay will not make them feel better. Those people, the......Read More

Posted on: 2009-04-04 00:19:23 | Rating:

| Views: 43 | Comments: 1 | Tags: Depression Friends

Forgiveness
So, I just finished watching "Madea goes to jail" and it inspired me to want to change. I learned that forgiving someone is for my benefit not their own. How true is that? Forgiving allows you to move on. With that, I want to forgive the 28 year old woman beating rapist who......Read More

Posted on: 2009-04-04 20:32:22 | Rating:

| Views: 62 | Comments: 4 | Tags: Forgiveness Rape

Retard
You know, what caused my self hate was my lack of ambition I wouldn't try to achieve my goals and then got mad at myself for it. I am lazy. I lack dirve. I have so many skills that I could use to get my life beyond track and yet, I waste them. I have to do......Read More

Posted on: 2009-04-12 14:58:46 | Rating:

| Views: 47 | Comments: 1 | Tags: better sick goals lack

What's wrong with me?
Why do things go wrong all the time with me? Why can't I ever be happy? Why is it that every time I try, I fall flat on my face? Again with school, I missed a deadline and now I would have to wait until November to apply now. I called several times for several months......Read More

Posted on: 2009-04-16 16:11:13 | Rating:

| Views: 52 | Comments: 3 | Tags: disappointment

Just typing
Not at my best. Not at my worst. Just typing I guess. Once again being hard on myself for my lack of ambition. I just dont get it. It's like an invisible statue of me sitting comfortably on my lap. It maked no sense. Theres nothing stopping me but........me. I didnt go......Read More