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I got to thinking the other day that people reading my blogs on here must think I am a.) A sentimental whus, b.) An incurrable romantic, or c.) A sick mind. Not exactly the way those who know me would describe me, although I question if anyone really knows me (or even cares to).
The people I work with would probably describe me a tough, mean SOB that has anger issues and is perhaps a bit unstable. I admit it is an image I've earned through several blow ups over the years. But you have to understand it is a work environment where only the hard survive and the soft don't last. On the other hand, I think they would consider me smarter than the average employee, probably because I am the only one that reads books and does crossword puzzles.
My family considers me the strong, silent type, brooding at times. They know I will come through when the chips are down, but they also know there are times when it is best to just leave me alone to my own demons.
My closest friends would probably say that I am a lot of fun. It is a reputation I mostly earned when I was younger and prone to ridiculous behavoir while under the influence of beer and Yukon Jack.
So how do I see me? Angry, sad, emotional and quiet, with a hero complex. I see myself as both an over achiever and an under achiever. A person who despises both weak men and men who take advantage of the weak. I'm also lonely and tired of fighting windmills.
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Posted by HungryHeart on 2007-12-29 00:28:44 | Rating: | Views: 176
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My wish for you is, Self love.
When we learn to love ourselves everything else just falls into place.
Stop fighting the windmills.
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Posted by trevorjohn
on 2007-12-29 14:48:23
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So what would you like to be? I know I don't know you but I went through a similar situation, being in love with someone else for 2 years while married. I decided to take control of my life, and am in such a better place right now although things did not turn out how I expected. I lost a great friend in my husband, the man I loved I ended up despising as well as myself and went thru a year of hellish self-discovery. But this allowed me to fall in love with a beautiful person in my life, one I had a brief thing with a decade ago. Whatever you do be true to yourself, and aim to achieve those qualities in yourself that you wish for
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Posted by MardouFox
on 2008-01-16 23:55:01
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