Song lyrics have a way of talking to us - identifying with our lives. I saw N today alone and kept a safe distance. I think this is what is best, (for her not me) but sometimes I think I don't know anything. It hurts unlike anything I have ever felt. I see in her eyes what I see in my heart. We want what we can't have. Will this ever pass? These are some of the lyrics that are speaking to me tonight:

Sister Hazel - Your Mistake
i'm not right
and i'm not fine
i wanna be rain
that tastes like wine
i wanna be good
i wanna be great
i wanna be everything
except for your mistake

Jackson Browne - That Girl Could Sing
She was a friend to me when I needed one
Wasn't for her I don't know what I'd done
She gave me back something that was missing in me
She could of turned out to be almost anyone Almost anyone--
With the possible exception Of who I wanted her to be

Bruce Springsteen - Better Days
Now a life of leisure and a pirate's treasure
Don't make much for tragedy
But it's a sad man my friend who's livin' in his own skin
And can't stand the company
Every fool's got a reason to feelin' sorry for himself
And turn his heart to stone
Tonight this fool's halfway to heaven and just a mile outta hell
And I feel like I'm comin' home

3 Doors Down - Here Without You
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it's only you and me