I'm trying as hard as I can, but last night and this morning's event are playing on my mind. I really don't know why I torture myself by hanging around these people. I can be as happy as larry and then when I see them, I get down on myself.

I know I am not a bad person, but they make me feel like one. I just need a cuddle but my boyfriend won't be home til Wednesday. He always makes me feel better.

These people are not better than me, but they act like it. I've made mistakes in my life, and so have they. But mine seem to be the worst kind of mistakes. I've learnt from them, and have become the person I am today because of them. All they do is see the mistakes and judge me. 

I'm not going to get into the whole story because I honestly don't have the energy for it. I just have to let them go live their shallow lives and forget the history we have. I am a good person and I know I don't deserve to be treated the way they treat me. I am sometimes just too loyal for my own good. I always end up getting hurt.