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I'm back from my break. I've still be loggin on, checking out whats been happening, just haven't had the heart to post anything. I've been down in the dumps the last couple weeks and I don't know why really. Too many things and getting worked up over nothing..

On the home front, my boy and I are coming up to our 3rd anniversary. Officially my longest relationship. He has been away the last few weeks after being home for a couple months and it hit me hard. Having him home every night and sleeping beside me, hanging out together.. a big shock to the system to have to come home to a empty house and cold bed... I missed him so much!! And it seemed everything happened all at once and I needed to talk to him, but I'm not a big talker on the phone so it was all building up inside me. But he'll be home in three more sleeps so I'm happy about thta. Everything seems to have settled down or not eventuated so the talks I said I needed no longer apply...

Things on the job front have been hassling me the most. In my current position at the hospital, they're training me in the admission office so I'm getting away from the reception which I am pretty happy about. The phone has the most annoying ring tone and it just keeps ringing and ringing and ringing and then rings a bit more. Grrrr... Then a job came up within the hospital going into the debtors side of things. And since I have just completed my Accounting TAFE course with distinction (so happy about that!!) I decided to apply for that. With a little encourage from mum's friend who got the job in the first place. She's been putting in good words for me with the Finance Manager, and told me they were expecting a application from me and were quite surprised I hadn't already done so. So I thought about it, an decided to do it. At the same time I got an interview with an Accountancy firm. Went to it, went fantastically but the only problem was the pay. Wasn't all that great although it was in the field that I want to be in. The job at the hospital is great money but not exactly where I want to be, and I really want to try to get out of there.. So I was stressing about the situation. Still haven't heard from the accountancy firm so I think that may have fizzled. Now I'm just waitin to hear about the hospital one....

I have been feeling really restless lately. My birthday is in two weeks and I'm gona be the big two five. Quarter of a century. I see people around me and they have husbands or kids or houses or careers and I'm sorta dangling in the middle of no-where. I have my boy who I love more than anything. But I'm kinda getting clucky. But before I settle down and have kids, I want to buy a house. I want my boy to get a divorce so we can the next step in our relationship. I feel like I should have done so much more by the age of 25 ...

I've been feeling like I need to be creative. I'm sick of being practical and organised and want to let all this creativity out. So I tried on-line scrapbooking. Worked okay but didn't feel like me. SO I tried real life scrapbooking. And it just didn't turn out right. I was getting all artsy with my camera but the photos didn't turn out right. I've been sitting outside at night looking up at the moon and i have all these images I want to capture but I just don't know how to do it too my liking. I found a site called glogs last night. Sorta like the online scrapbooking but it can go so many different directions. Gona have my hand at that next. I think my problem is, I have the most creative eye in my head but when I try to bring it out to show the world, it just doesn't come out right.

One good thing, out of the last few months. I haven't had to deal with the Dreaded Ex. After my last post about her and the little incident that occured then, she has stayed away, I'm certainly glad about it but the LIttle Princess started school this year and my boy hasn't seen her since she started. Tried to call up over Easter but she ignored the calls.. So we still have her Easter Eggs sitting in the cupboard. Its just gona be too late when she finally gets them.

My friend only has 17 weeks left of her pregnancy and 8 weeks till she goes on maternity leave. She came home on the weekend and we had lunch. She has nick named the bub Peanut. So every email or text msg its peanut this or peanut that. I just hope the name doesn't stick and when he or she decides to come out and join us in the world, I can get into the habit of calling it by its name. My friend wanted to know the sex but when she went for the ultrasound or whatever, little peanut didn't want to play. SO its a mystery now until.

Well I think I've talked myself out now. Excuse me, written. Hopefully it won't be so long between blogs!!

Posted by HornyLittlePoker on 2008-04-21 04:47:20 | Rating: