Hi again, I finally have more to write about. I went and stayed with my mom for 3 months. It was good, the only problem was that I knew that she was on shit, she tried to hide it, but she's not very good at hiding things. I had so much fun with my old friends, going back to the places i used to go to, it was amazing, i went to the house i was raped in, and i didn't feel anything because i finally forgave him and myself, i know that sounds stupid to forgive him, but if i hadn't i would still be that negative person i was 2 years ago. I am so amazed by myself at how much i've learned and how strong i am. Its amazing. I finally love myself. Ha. :] I love myself, i have never said that and meant it. My little brother moved in with my mom.. he thinks he can make her quit, but she will never quit, she has no clue what reality is anymore. she's so far gone that i don't even think there is away to help her. Because you can't quit unless you want to. I finally figured out what I want to do with my life. I have a dream and all that good stuff. I will NOT settle for anything less than my dream. I will not be like my mother and take from everyone. I will survive on my own, with or with out a man by my side. I don't need anyone. I'm ready for anything that gets thrown my way. I can honestly say that I am genuinly happy. And i love my life. My dads getting better, he has his bad days, but hes working again. And i am so proud of him. Well, thanks for reading about my life. Much love to all of you that read this :]]