Thoughts.com Blogs - Not Hiding Any More

From the start of this blog, I made the conscious decision to change the real names of those I spoke about. With one exception that is. Wilson. He is my hero and all that he has brought to my life has been so amazing. Knowing and loving him is something that I am so grateful for. I changed all the other names in my blogs. Mostly because I was nervous about speaking so much about the people in my life and what they would think about my opinions. For the most part though, I may have shared with the people in my life the fact that that I have a blog, but I damn sure haven't shared the address of it. Not yet. Not ready.
I am far from the shy quiet type of person who lived in the dark shadow of misery during my relationship with my sons father. My son's true name isn't "Reggie", It's Nathaniel. Nate for short. I don't know why I stood so hard behind keeping all the real names to myself. If I were to take a guess at the reason I would say it had something to do with feeling I could speak on all that was trapped inside of me by holding the names back. It might sound silly but I'm guessing I am not the first person who has done it and I won't be the last person either.
For anyone who believes that this type of forum is a free pass to vent I'll tell you that it is. Once I got past the whole naming-of-names issue I just let it fly. I did not realize how much of a voice I had buried inside me. So I am not hiding any longer. I've taken my life back, and little by little I will let go of the other issues that still hold me back. I will speak about the people in my life by their names when the time comes. Not because I feel like I need to correct myself but because I need to speak honestly about every aspect and not pick and choose anymore. My name is Bobbi Jo.
My heart, my soul, my son is Nate.
My hero, my true love, is Wilson.
I'm not hiding anymore.