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I am feeling optimistic today. For the past few weeks I have been talking to an old friend who I lost track of. Well, I always kind of knew where she was. Its just that thanks to my sons father and her boyfriend (AT THE TIME - she FINALLY dumped his sorry waste o' space ass!!!!!!!!!) we lost each other. The 2 guys are brothers. Brothers who HATE each others guts. We typically refer to them as Kain and Abel (hence where I got the name "Abel when I first started my blog) but since we both have ended our relationships with these guys we now refer to them as "Idiot and Asshole". Most days its a toss up of which name applies to who, lmao. Since she and I got caught up in the crossfire of these nitwits, it was easier for us 2 to deal with drifting apart than to put up with the extra stress. The downside is we lost a lot of time in each others lives. Her daughter Samantha, my God-daughter, was my little pal. I adored her and missed her all the time. She was barely 12 when all the drama became too much. She's going to be 17 next month. That is so much time. Too much time. She has grown into such a beautiful young woman. Smart? So unbelievably smart. She is at the top of her class, will graduate high school next year and already has a scholarship in place. She is such a wonderful, beautiful young woman and I am just sick when I think of the amount of time that I have missed with her. When I first seen her prom pictures (I posted one on here), I cried. That beautiful sophisticated young woman is the same little tow headed cutie pie who used to sit on my lap and color pictures with me. Lay on the sofa and watch the Little Mermaid or bake cookies or make "dirt cake" with me? It blew my mind. She also has a little brother. He will be 10 by the end of the summer. He and my son are blood cousins. I can only pray that our boys don't turn out to be anything like their "fathers". There were plenty of times that I have missed all 3 of them. I know that her and I have a way to go but just speaking again feels really nice. So, I am feeling optimistic for the first time in a long time. 
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