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I haven't been writing in this blog lately... why? I feel bad enough as it is that I'm sorta unemployed.
All I do all day long is apply at jobs... when I'm not doing bookeeping two days a week at an auto repair.
I have a college education and lost my job because of this crap economy.... too bad I picked a field that downsizes first whenever there is financial trouble. Go me!

I have had some interesting job interviews the past few weeks... got turned down for a lot. Why?
"You're overqualified. When your field picks up again you'll land a job and be outta here in a matter of months... it would be a waste of time to train you."
Whatever. They're probably right but seriously.... money would be good to have.... Oh and job security... well sorta.

I interviewed for a position 100% related to my field last week... it went well... but I don't know.
They made me a take a writing test for a particular job I've held before in 2 different places. So I know I can do the job... crappy thing is.... I lost my job Jan 1st. I haven't written anything since... and I can't practice because it's not like I put a newscast together everyday.
So I took this writing test and hopefully it went okay... I don't know... I'm feeling very negative because everything has been so shitty.

I have never been really unemployed before... probably because I could never afford to be.
Eventually this severence pay will run out and the two days a week at the shop won't be able to even pay for my half of the rent.
I tried praying but I have never been a religious person... and to be honest... I'm jewish and never believed in it anyway.

One time when I went through hard times, I went to see my grandma at her grave and cried to her. Just days later my troubles were gone and things were better... maybe I should do that? I don't know.

I know 76078678670786 people all over are feeling the affects of the economy... and bla bla bla... my story is no different. I am really in no mood to level with people. I just want a job with a steady paycheck coming in so I can feed myself. I don't think I'm asking for the moon here.

I've got a second interview in Manhattan this Tuesday... hopefully that goes well.... and I'm gonna call the manager of that job I took the writing test for. He'll either tell me I was awesome... or I sucked... and that will be awful because that's one of the only places left that I can go in my industry.

Anyway... it's been raining all day... I think that's why my mood is even worse.

On a lighter note: I watched all the Back to the Future's... man I love those movies!