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| Just one of those days |
I am just having one of those days. I haven't felt good all day, but that might just be because I am only three days out from my RXY(Roux-en-Y Gastric Bypass) surgery. I was having a hard time catching my breath this morning. So I spent a few hours in the ER to be told that my abdomen was having spams. I am still so very happy with my choice in having this surgery, but the healing part takes to long. I mean I feel good till I try to stand up or sit down or reach for something over my head. My core is so sore. I wasn't very good in what I ate today. I let not feeling good be my excuse to not eat much of anything (4 oz of strained soup, 5.5 oz of V8, and water). I think I will have a popsicle here in a little bit though.
Other than my healing go a little slow, I am trying to put together daughter's birthday party for next Saturday with my mom. It's more my mom doing the most and me helping since I am not feeling great. I don't know what I would do without her.
It is also hard to look in the mirror and know that I wont see any changes for a while more now, but I can see that I feel better about myself knowing that I did do something about my weight.
I should tell you al that I was not always the biggest girl in the group. I stated putting on more and more weight after puberty, but also it came faster after I had my daughter at 20 years old. I just started packing on the pounds. I have tried a lot of stuff to fix the weight gain issue, but nothing was working. So last March I stated looking into Doctors in my area, which there aren't any of. I branched out and started asking around. My GP told me about a doctor in Santa Barbara that has had great success and a good number of positive outcomes. So in May I got all the paper work and started doing more research online. While doing all of this I have also been the primary care taker for my mom who found out she had breast cancer Oct. 2008. So I am taking care of her and raising my daughter. I have been a single mom for most of my daughter's life. Her father and I got divorced in 2005, but I left him Sept. 2003. He hasn't been a part of Kali's life since. It was a very ugly scene and I am happy to have it done and over with. So I guess you could say that I started to eat when I was unhappy and it just got to be more and more from there. I am working with a counselor now so that I can have the best outcome from my surgery.
So that is all the stuff that goes through my head every now and then. I guess I am treating this blogging thing as a jurnal I am sharing with the world. Only problem is I do have to do some back story fill in. So I hope you all don't mind to much. If something doesn't make since then please feel free to ask a question and I will answer it. Hope everyone is having a good evening. I'll be back later.
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Posted by HCMovingOn on 2009-10-12 01:02:58 | Rating: | Views: 22
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