Thoughts.com Blogs - Could you be loved?

Yes, if you must know I'm a lesbian, so if you have a problem w/ it...I'd advise you not to read. K? Thanks. This is just me bloggin just to.

I often q uestion rather true love really exists? Is there really such a thing as Destiny?

I can't help but think that she is the one. Though we aren't together, and may not be for some time...due to the distance. I can't help but have this feeling about her, that maybe we'll get the chance to pick things up when we we're finished up with college. I often wonder where she'll be in the next year when I've graduated.

She's constantly on my mind. From the moment I wake, before I fall asleep..and even in my dreams. I have all the love in the world for her. The impact that she has made in my life is mind blowing. She has changed the way I look at myself. I have this new found confidence. How I eat (a newly vegetarian). I mean I'm a yankee's fan now, lol. Though we aren't together I still find myself watching the games...and her and I texting about it. I just have a lot of memories with her. I've experienced a lot of things with her. She is an overall amazing woman. Not to mention an amazing lover.

I can only hope that the things she says to me aren't just words...sweet nothings. She says I'm everything. That I mean the world to her. That she's still in love me. I haven't seen her in months. I can't wait to look her in the eye. To see if what she feels is real.

She's just special to me. There is really more then meets the eye in this situation. I can't expect anything at the moment. I know that she is finishing school. I know that school is what drives her in life. I know that getting her education is first. And I don't disagree. I have to finish school myself. All I can say is that if there is still something there in the next year then maybe we can have a fresh start. I find it to be easier to stay in love with her rather than fall out of love with her.

I have plans to see here in the middle of May. I'm anticipating the moment that I see her sweet face. It's been months since I've seen her smile. Held her. Kissed her. The attraction between the two of us is obvious. We can't seem to keep our eyes or hands off one another. She is the only girl that I've had an balance of everything. Our connection is something out of this world. I'm attracted to her mind. her soul. her body. her sweet talking. how ambitious she is. You could say she's damn near perfect.

I'm not writing in here for advice per say. I just have thoughts that need to be expressed. hints the site...thoughts.com I'm out for the nite. What can I say, she's my addiction ^_^