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My news, resolution of the Zach issue, and the end

Miss me?
I've been looking at sheet music for love and break up songs, like "Plumb's Cut" and "Frankie Valle's Can't Take My Eyes Off of You." These songs would be really fun to play on the violin, I think.
But with all the looking up of songs, it's kind of like torture.
Too many emotions, welling up inside.
Why do I choose to torture myself?

Well, my good news that I promised to inform the universe;
Jeff asked me to prom. (I'm only a Sophmore, btw.)
It's a really great thing, and will be a lot of fun. Sopha-derf, kelly, nanners, and "we" (signifying that I have no idea who is going) are all going to go shopping for prom dresses. It'll be fun.
Kelly wants to do my hair and make-up.
Last time I had a "make-over," it was in Rome. I allowed the group, reluctantly, to do it. Usually, that sort of thing is done over a vacation; I got my hair cut in Chautauqua by Jennifer. Christy wanted to see what I looked like in make-up at Kawartha. We painted nails in Myrtle Beach. Yeah, I'm freer on vacation, not having my ever-present headband on my head.
So, I'm going to allow her to wreak havoc... Or more or less, do to me what she will.
She says she'll be modest, a slight comfort. XD
Why not, it's P R O M!
Besides, I don't think Jeff knows me enough to know that all this make-up junk is way out of character for me. I don't think I'd like to disappoint him.
His prom date will be pretty. *poof*

~Goo.

PS. Update on the Zach situation;
I told him the news of the prom-asking-by-Jeff, and he acted either
1.) Like he didn't know how to handle the situation.
2.) Like he wasn't over me.
3.) Something I didn't think of.
When I told him my news, he wasn't happy for me. I really did think that he would be, because he said that he wanted to congratulate me on my GETTING MY TEMPS. He SAID that he wanted to share in my joy, but here he clearly didn't. He shuffled and set down his books harshly, didn't smile at me, and didn't even look at me right away. Like it made him angry and he was just going to ignore it.
I expected him to smile at me, and say, "Good, that'll be fun." But he didn't. He wasn't happy, and that was evident. Whether it was because he's not over "us" yet, or because this information merely made him uncomfortable, I haven't a clue.
But I do know that I'm not going to worry about it.

I haven't talked with Zach all day today; Good step?
I hope so; It's been really hard to avoid him.
I want to tell you all about why I am avoiding him and minimalizing contact.
I really do want to spill my guts the way I normally do when blogging.
But I won't.
I can't.

You see, I can't tell you anything at this point because things have gotten "interesting" in a bad way with the Zach situation.

So from this point on, this is all you know about him, about us, and about me;
I haven't talked to him all day.
We will both continue to merely exist.
To melt away, into the backdrop of life.

"The end."
Gee, not a very satisfying ending, is it?